Mid Year Review

So many things have happened for the past 6 months. I was at heaven for a while and then back to hell for a while. In fact I guess I am still in hell now.

Somehow I started to dislike what I am doing. At this stage, I am trying very hard to be positive thinking and self motivating, but I know it is just the matter of time, if things don't change.

Well, no harm to start looking out. All the best!

Motivation

Some internal reflection again today. To some people, self motivation is more important than external motivation, as the former is the one that drives us in long tetm. But I think, both motivations are equally important. Nobody would like to be rejected all the time, although he or she has tried their best to motivate themselves. I think, as a leader we should motivate our people in the correct way. When it is time for sincere acknowledgement and appriasal, we should not stop ourselves from doing so. Getting approval from others can be a strong motivation for a person to continue moving forward and thus cultivate a stronger self motivation. Sometimes the sense of belonging can directly affect a person's productivity. Sometimes we tend to believe so much in a highly accredited person that we lost touch of our own thoughts. It is not necessary that the almighty person is right all the time. If you think you are right, dont give up your thoughts easily.

Happy Birthday to Myself

Was thinking about the water issue that happened recently in Selangor. Thousands of households are left without water for more than 10 days and the government is apparently still working on "something" to fix the problem.

People who are affected by this problem seriously feel the pain. Imagine life without water. It means that there is no cooking, no washing, no shower, no flushing the toilet and worst - No drinking water. Those with infants who need clean water are really in big trouble.

In the end of the day, regardless of whether we are rich or poor, none of us can actually run away from the problem. Say like I am a millionaire today, but I do not have the basic essentials to sustain my daily life, whats the point of having so much money then?

Haha, as I am getting one year older very soon, I tend to feel that family and love and friends are more important elements in life. :) Happy birthday to myself.

Blunt little old woman

Sometimes when I look at others, I found that some people can really hide their emotion well. What they show on their face is different from what they really thinking in their heart. Sometimes I really admire people who has the ability to do that, meaning they are successful people who know the tricks to survive and strive in corporate. But really, I prefer to be honest to myself, and be genuine to others.

I prefer to really know and like a person, rather than to fake myself to like a person. I dont know, I am just a blunt little old woman.

Nothing is Impossible?

When people tell me "Nothing is Impossible", I often think it is something very motivating to say. It helps boost our confidence level and thus be able to march forward towards our goals.

Nonetheless, in reality, "Nothing is Impossible"  is not something that we can achieve easily. The marching process can be very long, slow and suffering. Along the way there could be many barriers that try to stop us from reaching the end destination. Along the way we may actually give up before we can reach the final destination. It requires not just the positive chanting of "Nothing is Impossible", but it requires a lot more self motivation and determination so that "it is possible" to achieve our desired goals, although it may take times, sweats and tears.

I am slowly marching my way to my desired destination. God bless, I hope I will be able to achieve. Gambateh! :) 

When the wall breaks down~

What happens when you open your heart to someone else?

The first feeling that creeps in is the sense of insecurity. It is like we have built strong walls to guard our secrets, and somehow the walls were broken down and our secret revealed.

I had that kinda feeling when I told him what I feel today. The first few hours were horrible, I didn't know why I actually have to be so honest to him. But I guess this may be the right thing to do, as I do not want to make up stories to justify my actions.

5 Evils that will block our ways to achieveing success.

1. Justification
2. Identification
3. Hypersensitive
4. Judgementalism
5. Rationalism

I am glad that I am able to share with him my true self. This shows that I am able to face myself honestly. It is only when I put down my ego that I can start to see the world and myself in a clearer perspective.

I am happy now, and will work towards my goals. Aza!

怀念

时间啊， 总是在我们不经意的时候偷偷溜走。

今天刚好经过我以前很常去的地方。海南咖啡店，我和 Jane 时常消磨时间的地方；Jaya One, 我和 Jane 时常午餐的地方。

只是短短一年，人事已非。Jane嫁去沙巴，而我已经开始在公司上班。

人生啊，总是充满了未知数，没有人可以预测明天的我们会过怎样的生活。

怀念，那些年姐妹陶的日子。

I Dont Give a Shit~

There are times in life where I hate myself.

No specific reason, it was just like a sudden strike.

Maybe there was a series of events that lead to this emotion shut down.

But really, I don't give a shit and not bother to look back and analyze what happened.

Instead, I tuned on some emo songs and let my emotion sinks/ sings together with the songs.

Me-ing

Sometimes it is important to have our own space.

I feel more relieve and comfortable when he is not around sometimes.

I find it a bit difficult to do myown things when he is around, at least not very comfortably.

It is good to have some time for myself sometimes.

I guess people call this the "Me-ing" time. Please do not disturb. :)

Sigh~

I think for as long as I am still in pharma, I am going to face this situation repeatedly.

To me , it takes time to build friendship with colleagues. I am not that type where I can be friend with anyone anywhere at anytime. Somehow I just started to get closer to her, and now she is leaving already.

I face it so many times in my working life in Roche. Every time when I was about to get close to a colleague, to become a true friend, then he or she has decided to move on. I can't believe WW is leaving too. Feel kinda sad actually. :(

So the whole team has left, only Ying is left from the old batch. Will she be leaving soon too? :(