There are times in life where I hate myself.
No specific reason, it was just like a sudden strike.
Maybe there was a series of events that lead to this emotion shut down.
But really, I don't give a shit and not bother to look back and analyze what happened.
Instead, I tuned on some emo songs and let my emotion sinks/ sings together with the songs.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Me-ing
Sometimes it is important to have our own space.
I feel more relieve and comfortable when he is not around sometimes.
I find it a bit difficult to do myown things when he is around, at least not very comfortably.
It is good to have some time for myself sometimes.
I guess people call this the "Me-ing" time. Please do not disturb. :)
I feel more relieve and comfortable when he is not around sometimes.
I find it a bit difficult to do myown things when he is around, at least not very comfortably.
It is good to have some time for myself sometimes.
I guess people call this the "Me-ing" time. Please do not disturb. :)
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Sigh~
I think for as long as I am still in pharma, I am going to face this situation repeatedly.
To me , it takes time to build friendship with colleagues. I am not that type where I can be friend with anyone anywhere at anytime. Somehow I just started to get closer to her, and now she is leaving already.
I face it so many times in my working life in Roche. Every time when I was about to get close to a colleague, to become a true friend, then he or she has decided to move on. I can't believe WW is leaving too. Feel kinda sad actually. :(
So the whole team has left, only Ying is left from the old batch. Will she be leaving soon too? :(
To me , it takes time to build friendship with colleagues. I am not that type where I can be friend with anyone anywhere at anytime. Somehow I just started to get closer to her, and now she is leaving already.
I face it so many times in my working life in Roche. Every time when I was about to get close to a colleague, to become a true friend, then he or she has decided to move on. I can't believe WW is leaving too. Feel kinda sad actually. :(
So the whole team has left, only Ying is left from the old batch. Will she be leaving soon too? :(
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Time Management~
Recently realized that I wasted so much time doing nothing! OMG!
The last Saturday I merely sat in front of the TV and drama for the whole day. In the end of the day I was tired not because I exhausted my energy doing something useful, but doing nothing!
Time to take this seriously. Make use of my time wisely. Live as if it is the last day of my life. Phew! Time to do some work! Yo!
P/S: Time to sweat it out tomorrow!
The last Saturday I merely sat in front of the TV and drama for the whole day. In the end of the day I was tired not because I exhausted my energy doing something useful, but doing nothing!
Time to take this seriously. Make use of my time wisely. Live as if it is the last day of my life. Phew! Time to do some work! Yo!
P/S: Time to sweat it out tomorrow!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Change~
Recalling what happened this time last year, those drastic changes and abrupt movement, I am seeing a repeat of history this year this time.
Seriously sometimes I cannot control whats happening at the macro-environment, but I guess the only thing that I can control is how I am going to face them. Too much of change may not be good, but I cannot deny the fact that change, most of the time is for the better.
It is time to change myself. The mentality of seeing the whole office drama rolling out again. Welcome to the world.
Seriously sometimes I cannot control whats happening at the macro-environment, but I guess the only thing that I can control is how I am going to face them. Too much of change may not be good, but I cannot deny the fact that change, most of the time is for the better.
It is time to change myself. The mentality of seeing the whole office drama rolling out again. Welcome to the world.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
I like who I am~
It has been a long long time ever since I started to care about how others feel about me. But nowadays I find it very tiring to live up to everyone's expectation but myself.
I want to be myself, to do the things I like. Almost, I am not saying 100% yet, everyday I am getting better in caring less of what other people thinking of me. Too time consuming, and too mental torturing. If I am gonna die tomorrow, I hope I will be able to bring along the good memories with me, something that I'd proud of myself, rather than all the sighs and regret.
P/S: It is always at night that I become more sentimental. Hmmmm....
I want to be myself, to do the things I like. Almost, I am not saying 100% yet, everyday I am getting better in caring less of what other people thinking of me. Too time consuming, and too mental torturing. If I am gonna die tomorrow, I hope I will be able to bring along the good memories with me, something that I'd proud of myself, rather than all the sighs and regret.
P/S: It is always at night that I become more sentimental. Hmmmm....
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
A Thousand Years~
Do you believe in music therapy?
Some music really makes our heart aches, makes our eyes tear, makes our body dances. Sometimes after a long working day, all I need is a nice song to cleanse my tired soul.
This is it! One of the best songs in 2011. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.
P/S: The guy proposed to his girlfriend using memes reminded me of this song. =)
Some music really makes our heart aches, makes our eyes tear, makes our body dances. Sometimes after a long working day, all I need is a nice song to cleanse my tired soul.
This is it! One of the best songs in 2011. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.
P/S: The guy proposed to his girlfriend using memes reminded me of this song. =)
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Humanity~
Many people said dog is human's best friend.
I don't know because I am not an animal lover nor did I have any pet before in my life. But recently a friend of mine is suffering greatly from her dog, which is dying of old age.
The dog was with her and her family for more than 16 years and now it is about time to go. I don't know what kind of emotion is that to lose a pet that we have kept company for so long, but I know she is very sad and cannot let go. I remember once when I called her for some business matter, she sounded weird and before I could finish talking she put down the call. I wondered for a while before I received her text and she apologized, because she wasn't in the right mood to talk. Her dog is very sick.
Seeing what she and her family have to go through really makes my mind thinks. Family bonding, love and passion. People feel sad for losing their pets, people feel said for losing their loved ones. All these emotions are evidence that we are still a "human" human.
We aren't completely blinded by money, power and greed yet, although our world is corrupted enough. We still have what makes us human, and that's humanity. I really hope that my friend will be able to go through this. All the best to her.
P/S: Be strong k babe. =)
I don't know because I am not an animal lover nor did I have any pet before in my life. But recently a friend of mine is suffering greatly from her dog, which is dying of old age.
The dog was with her and her family for more than 16 years and now it is about time to go. I don't know what kind of emotion is that to lose a pet that we have kept company for so long, but I know she is very sad and cannot let go. I remember once when I called her for some business matter, she sounded weird and before I could finish talking she put down the call. I wondered for a while before I received her text and she apologized, because she wasn't in the right mood to talk. Her dog is very sick.
Seeing what she and her family have to go through really makes my mind thinks. Family bonding, love and passion. People feel sad for losing their pets, people feel said for losing their loved ones. All these emotions are evidence that we are still a "human" human.
We aren't completely blinded by money, power and greed yet, although our world is corrupted enough. We still have what makes us human, and that's humanity. I really hope that my friend will be able to go through this. All the best to her.
P/S: Be strong k babe. =)
Friday, December 23, 2011
Super Idiot~
I thought I have seen the worst of her idiotic face for the past few days.
Didn't know that the worst part (so far) is now. She asked her assistant to call and said she is now running low of stock. Asked to put in order urgently when X'mas is just a day after tomorrow and the supplier is closed for the holiday.
The worst of the worst is she some more dare to ask me for bonus scheme when she knew that she didn't have the chance to extend her contract with us anymore. Can you believe it? Such idiotic person? And yet I still have to smile to her the next time I see her? Bloody hell to the maximum.
Grrrr! And the worst thing is, she ruined the first day of my long holiday. Grrrr! >.< You IDIOT!
Didn't know that the worst part (so far) is now. She asked her assistant to call and said she is now running low of stock. Asked to put in order urgently when X'mas is just a day after tomorrow and the supplier is closed for the holiday.
The worst of the worst is she some more dare to ask me for bonus scheme when she knew that she didn't have the chance to extend her contract with us anymore. Can you believe it? Such idiotic person? And yet I still have to smile to her the next time I see her? Bloody hell to the maximum.
Grrrr! And the worst thing is, she ruined the first day of my long holiday. Grrrr! >.< You IDIOT!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Idiot~
This woman that I met today is scary.
I was trying hard to endure her evil and greedy face for almost 2 hours, and all she said was to give her a better offer before come talk to her again.
Throughout the whole conversation all she thinks about is money, profit and how to maximize profit for her organization. Ya I mean, I understand you are one of the shareholders and all you wanted to do is to bring the best interest to your company group.
But seeing her face today really ruined my mood to the maximum. Regardless of what I said, she just wanted me to offer her something better. She as a crucial person in a hospital setup never put patients' priority in the first place but profit always comes first.
Well, this is your choice. Don't come and bug me for drugs when you're running out of stock while I am having holiday. Damn you!
I was trying hard to endure her evil and greedy face for almost 2 hours, and all she said was to give her a better offer before come talk to her again.
Throughout the whole conversation all she thinks about is money, profit and how to maximize profit for her organization. Ya I mean, I understand you are one of the shareholders and all you wanted to do is to bring the best interest to your company group.
But seeing her face today really ruined my mood to the maximum. Regardless of what I said, she just wanted me to offer her something better. She as a crucial person in a hospital setup never put patients' priority in the first place but profit always comes first.
Well, this is your choice. Don't come and bug me for drugs when you're running out of stock while I am having holiday. Damn you!
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