随心~

有人说，其实幸福就在尾巴上。
可是当我回头望，
幸福的感觉，并没有。
我只想努力向前走。

到底我该顾虑世俗的眼光，
违背自己的心，
还是依然自我？
我会有后悔的一天吗？

离离合合，前前后后。
对于你，心已死。
不喜欢模糊不清，
是就是，不是就不是，
想就想，不想就不想，
没有灰色地带。

面对感情，我随心。
如果心不快乐，
那还有假装快乐的理由吗？

Marriage that lasts~

*How do you define marriage?*

An example that I have observed recently.

A couple was fighting over where to pay the car park ticket. They were at the counter but found that it was an auto-pay car park. The husband then parked the car at one side near to the counter but very far away from the auto-pay machine. The wife then suggested to reverse and drive the car near to the auto-pay machine so that he didn't have to walk so far. The wife's tone was slightly offensive.

Below was their conversation:
Husband: You tell me how we can reverse back?!
Wife: Just reverse la... Then park in front of the auto-pay station ma...
(The wife was using a lot of hand motions)
Husband: Cannot one la...
Wife: Why cannot? Just make a turn only ma...
Husband: You tell me how?!! Aiya~ Don't care la... I just park here...
(The husband was getting very angry and he left the car to pay the ticket)
Wife: Ok then up to you...
(The wife waved her hand before the husband slammed the door)

When the husband was finally back to the car and I thought they would continue arguing, their actions surprised me.

Wife: How much is the parking?
(In a non-offensive and caring way)
Husband: RM7
(He passed the ticket to his wife while he reversed the car)
Wife: Wow nowadays parking are so expensive.
Husband: Yalor... Next time maybe we can find somewhere else to park.
Wife: Yea...
(She handed some peeled langsat for her husband)

See... this should be the right way for a husband and wife to communicate with each other. Tolerance is the key. Sometimes when a person is too angry, they may have said something offensive and hurtful but seriously they didn't really mean it.

Just give each other some time to cool down and don't take their words personally, especially when they are mad. Most of the time they don't even know how the words could spill out from their mouth. It is just a reflective reaction when a person is very angry.

Marriage is a platform that allows loving couples to live together and to build a new life together. It takes a lot of courage, determination and commitment to do so. So don't give up easily and don't let your temporarily anger blinds your eyes and ruins your marriage. =D

Me being a working adult~

Received a confirmation call and email today. Straumann is hiring me. This coming Thursday I would have to be there for a briefing and staff introduction. Then Monday I have to report myself officially to the manager. Things are moving fast. Before that I just saved more than 10 potential jobs from jobstreets where I am planning to throw in my resume today, but seems like there is not necessary now. Although I am job hunting, but the transition seems to be too sudden, it caught me by surprise. Am I happy now? To finally get a job? The answer is NO. I am not excited nor I am happy. Just, plain and worried.

Probably I am the eldest in my family. My parents are making a big hoo-haa about my job. Because my aunt and her family came for a short visit to our house, all they talk about is how fast I get a job and what I should and should not do while working. I hate the attention. I don't like people talking about me, especially my parents. Ever since last time, things have never changed a bit. "My daughter get how many As in SPM, which college and university she is going, hows her performance in school, what she did during her free time, whatever whatever whatever". I know they are proud of me. But I am not comfortable under the spotlight.

And I know I was abit rude just now. When mom was asking me if I've shared the news with all my friends. I just said it is no big deal. What is that to spread around. Acted like a kid I know, but sometimes just bad tempered and couldn't control. Whatever.

Now there are few things to do before I start working.
1) I have to know the direction to my office in Cheras. Dad said it will be ultra jam in the morning. But not that I have a choice thou.

2) I have to change my lifestyle. Have been sleeping quite late nowadays and wake up in the noon. Don't think the boss still wants me if I don't change my lifestyle. Also if possible, stop drinking coffee.

3) Gotto mentally prepare myself. Well, it is like I am back to the first day of Monash. Fresh, new, nerd, nervous and clueless. I have to start everything from the ground again, learning new things and make sure I am useful to the company so that I can stay long enough in the company to include this job in my resume. =P

Also I think it is not easy to be a working adult. The adult world is different. Much more cruel. You have to stay competitive and strong. You must be hardworking and smart. You must know how to communicate with your colleagues and how to make your boss happy. I am thinking of the near future, where I wish to hop up the career ladder and hold a managerial position. Thats my aim and for that I know I have to work even harder.

*Cupcakes cupcakes cupcakes!*

Okay. Think I should stop spreading the negative *chi* around. Abit of colorful cupcakes to cheer everyone up. Life is bleak sometimes, but it is still wonderful. =D

200% Blur~

Case Number 1:

Today while having fun in the kitchen (making lasagna) I saw my little brother coming into the kitchen to DIY glue. Those where you mix water and flour together and you can produce in bulk. Below is the conversation:

Me: Why are you doing this? (pointing to the glue)
Bro: I want to secure my puzzle.
Me: Why suddenly you got puzzle one? Got place to put meh?
Bro: My friend give me one...
Me: Why they so good one?
Bro: Today is what date? The day before is what date?
Me: Today is 25th la... Day before ma 24th lor...

Oh My GODDDDDD....

P/S: 24th July is my little brother's birthday and I totally forgot about it!
The puzzle was his birthday gift...
@@ Sorry bro... I am a bad sister...

Case number 2:
On the 23rd July I went to celebrate my friend's birthday with a couple of friends. And after the night they left the unfinished cake in my car and yet I didn't notice. The cake was left in the car until today, when I decided to take the book that I've left in the car. Then only I noticed the cake!!!! Kakaka~ I dare not to open the box because I scare I see something gross inside. Come on, for about 2 days and the car was parked under the sun. The heat and all that, I don't think it is edible anymore, at least to human. Maybe the worms are just about to start the feast. *vomit*...

Why am I so blur??? @.@

Too good to be real~

Hunting for a job is never easy, some said it can take up to months before you can get a job secured. Well, today is 23rd, the 16th days of my job hunting process. Yesterday I went for an interview, it is a well-known dental company (Straumann) whereby according to the manager, almost all dental associates around the world are using the dental products and instruments and technology from their company. They are the global leader.

Well, guess how I know about this company? One fine day I was browsing through the net as usual to look for suitable jobs. Suddenly I saw my dental gel on the table right next to the laptop. Being playful, I played around with the gel and then I saw a company name printed on the tube of the gel. Being curious, I googled the company online and found their contact number for Malaysia office. Then just to try my luck, I called up the company and asked for job vacancy. Then the receptionist said there is vacancy and directed me to the manager.

After some brief introduction and all that, I got an interview appointment with the manager, purely by luck. Then...

Yesterday was the interview and apparently the manager kinda likes me. He said he will consider my application and will call me back in a week or two. Also, if he didn't call me back, he asked me to call him by the 3rd of August, since he said he will be going to Cambodia during the end of this month and may be quite busy. I am not sure the chances of me getting the job, the following are things that he had mentioned during the interview:

1) First he was happy because I am wearing braces (because he wears too)
2) Second he was happy because we have the same orthodontist
3) Third he said my orthodontist is his friend
4) He kept saying *good good* during the interview
5) He asked me when I can start working
6) He explained the job scope in detail
7) He talked about the salary
8) He replied my thank you letter in a hour and promised to keep me updated
9) He asked me to call him by 3rd August

And the good news is, once I passed the three months probation, he said the company will send me to Switzerland (HQ) for one month training. How good! The salary that he quoted me for now is rm2600 plus car allowance.

I am damn anxious now. Counting the days. I seriously wish I can get this job. Pray hard.

When feelings fade~

When you are deeply in love.
You see no one but only him.
No flaws, no weaknesses, nothing.
Everything about him is simply perfect.
That is why people said love is blind.

But when feelings fade.
When you're no longer craving for him.
Your eyes are cleared.
Your mind are cleared.
He is nothing but ordinary.
When times go by
You see flaws.
You see weaknesses.
You started to hate the man in front of you.
Wondering why you love him so much.

Last time you would give up everything just to see him.
Now you calculate the opportunity cost.
He is no longer the perfecto~
Well, what should we do,
When feelings are fading?

Rawang~

I guess most of them know that I am from Rawang. But if you ask me how much I know about my hometown, the answer is very little. Often time when my friends ask me for yam cha, I will end up calling them and ask for direction. Reason? Coz I didn't know there is such shop or cafe in Rawang! Lolx. My memory for this small town was halted in my pre-U time, when I moved to Sunway and I hardly come to Rawang town anymore.

But today thanks to Jack, I get to know Rawang much better. Lolx. He got a part time job in Rawang for 4 months and today he came to settle some documents and stuffs and we have a short but fun Rawang trip.

If I didn't drive around the town today, I wouldn't know that there are so many new shops now. So many new things in town and yet I have no idea of it. Lolx. Now there are theme-based cafes targeting young adults, so many new shops selling all sorta things and goods. So many restaurants targeting families and so many small offices setting up here. Even the roads have changed, new roads and flyovers have been constructed. Now there is a new highway connecting Rawang to Serendah and Kubu Baru, kaka~ and yet I didn't know until today. Paiseh... =P

Thanks Jack, as I get to know Rawang better.
Thanks Jack again, for the free Starbucks coffee. Muahaha~

When you have too much of durian~

It is durian season now...
Parents and aunties are buying non-stop...
Reason? Coz they said it is cheap and nice and seasonal fruit...
Kaka~ But everyone is too fed up with durian already...
No one really wanna eat anymore...
So what we do when there is too much of durian?

Instead of attracting flies to house...
My aunt transformed them into durian crepe...
Suddenly the durian tastes so much nicer than the original...
Lolx...

Yea, crepe as in those thin, crispy pancake...
I thought it will be very difficult to make...
But turns out it is really very easy...
Even people with no sense of cooking like me...
Find it ultra easy and interesting and fun and nice!

Lolx... Recipe as below:
*All in rough estimation*

1 cup of flour
1 cup of low fat milk
2 eggs
2 spoonfuls of melted butter

Mix everything together and let it stand in the fridge for one hour.
Then get your non-stick frying pan ready...
Preferably the think non-stick pan...
So that the heat can be distributed evenly...
Spread some margarine (for the first one only) and there you go.
Add in a scoopful of batter onto the pan...
Spread and make into round shape...
Be patient...
First one usually will be very ugly...
But practice makes perfect...
Try another few more times and you will have a round and thin and nice one...
As easy as that...

Then for the durian part...
Take away the seed and spread the durian puree onto the crepe...
Wrap it and there you go!
Yummy yummy...
=D

Durian is still my fav after all... ^^

3 words, 8 letters, say it and I am yours~

*Chair = Chuck + Blair*

I am 23.
But I still fall for guys like Chuck Bass.
Just in case you don't know.
He is the hottest guy in Gossip Girl (GG).
To me at least.
Yea GG may have no nutrient.
Some said it is a waste of human and capital resources.
But who cares?
It is not a shame to still fall for hot guys.
Especially someone like Chuck Bass.

He may be a bad guy.
I don't care how many one night stand he has.
When he lost his virginity and to whom.
I guess he himself doesn't know.
But who cares?
I just know that he loves Blair.
And is willing to do anything to protect her.
Even if that involves to lie to himself.
And to quit the triangle love.
Yea, pretty boring even for an American drama.
But once again who cares.

I just want to shout out loud.
I have fallen.
For Chuck Bass in GG.
But not for Ed Westwick in real life.

Can't wait for season 3. =P

Because I am too lazy...~

I had a free eye check up the other day as my friend was working part time there. Well, they said my cornea epithelial cell count is at the low borderline for my age, which is something not good. The personnel asked if I am using contact lens, I said yea but months ago, I stopped using when I am just too lazy to wash my hand, take out the lens and rub with solution. Too lazy.

But why the cornea count thing is still so low? Well, also because I am too lazy. Although I didn't use contact lens for months but the damage might have been done over the time where I have been using contacts for years. I started wearing glasses during form 3, and contacts during year 1 or 2 perhaps. Kaka~ and what makes the matter worst is that I like to lie on the bed under my blanket and watch drama or read books. Sometimes when the drama gets too addictive like Gossip Girl I will forget the time and watch till morning. Under such condition, I wonder how my eyes can be of good health...

Plus, by having the life of a pig, I wonder how long it takes for me to really become a pig. Well, believe it or not, fats are accumulating around my waist and thigh and legs, claiming their authority on my body... It is just the matter of time before I am officially being categorized under the obese category. Lets see... @@