When the wall breaks down~

What happens when you open your heart to someone else?

The first feeling that creeps in is the sense of insecurity. It is like we have built strong walls to guard our secrets, and somehow the walls were broken down and our secret revealed.

I had that kinda feeling when I told him what I feel today. The first few hours were horrible, I didn't know why I actually have to be so honest to him. But I guess this may be the right thing to do, as I do not want to make up stories to justify my actions.

5 Evils that will block our ways to achieveing success.

1. Justification
2. Identification
3. Hypersensitive
4. Judgementalism
5. Rationalism

I am glad that I am able to share with him my true self. This shows that I am able to face myself honestly. It is only when I put down my ego that I can start to see the world and myself in a clearer perspective.

I am happy now, and will work towards my goals. Aza!

怀念

时间啊， 总是在我们不经意的时候偷偷溜走。

今天刚好经过我以前很常去的地方。海南咖啡店，我和 Jane 时常消磨时间的地方；Jaya One, 我和 Jane 时常午餐的地方。

只是短短一年，人事已非。Jane嫁去沙巴，而我已经开始在公司上班。

人生啊，总是充满了未知数，没有人可以预测明天的我们会过怎样的生活。

怀念，那些年姐妹陶的日子。

I Dont Give a Shit~

There are times in life where I hate myself.

No specific reason, it was just like a sudden strike.

Maybe there was a series of events that lead to this emotion shut down.

But really, I don't give a shit and not bother to look back and analyze what happened.

Instead, I tuned on some emo songs and let my emotion sinks/ sings together with the songs.

Me-ing

Sometimes it is important to have our own space.

I feel more relieve and comfortable when he is not around sometimes.

I find it a bit difficult to do myown things when he is around, at least not very comfortably.

It is good to have some time for myself sometimes.

I guess people call this the "Me-ing" time. Please do not disturb. :)

Sigh~

I think for as long as I am still in pharma, I am going to face this situation repeatedly.

To me , it takes time to build friendship with colleagues. I am not that type where I can be friend with anyone anywhere at anytime. Somehow I just started to get closer to her, and now she is leaving already.

I face it so many times in my working life in Roche. Every time when I was about to get close to a colleague, to become a true friend, then he or she has decided to move on. I can't believe WW is leaving too. Feel kinda sad actually. :(

So the whole team has left, only Ying is left from the old batch. Will she be leaving soon too? :(

Time Management~

Recently realized that I wasted so much time doing nothing! OMG!

The last Saturday I merely sat in front of the TV and drama for the whole day. In the end of the day I was tired not because I exhausted my energy doing something useful, but doing nothing!

Time to take this seriously. Make use of my time wisely. Live as if it is the last day of my life. Phew! Time to do some work! Yo!

P/S: Time to sweat it out tomorrow!

Change~

Recalling what happened this time last year, those drastic changes and abrupt movement, I am seeing a repeat of history this year this time.

Seriously sometimes I cannot control whats happening at the macro-environment, but I guess the only thing that I can control is how I am going to face them. Too much of change may not be good, but I cannot deny the fact that change, most of the time is for the better.

It is time to change myself. The mentality of seeing the whole office drama rolling out again. Welcome to the world.

I like who I am~

It has been a long long time ever since I started to care about how others feel about me. But nowadays I find it very tiring to live up to everyone's expectation but myself.

I want to be myself, to do the things I like. Almost, I am not saying 100% yet, everyday I am getting better in caring less of what other people thinking of me. Too time consuming, and too mental torturing. If I am gonna die tomorrow, I hope I will be able to bring along the good memories with me, something that I'd proud of myself, rather than all the sighs and regret.

P/S: It is always at night that I become more sentimental. Hmmmm....

A Thousand Years~

Do you believe in music therapy?

Some music really makes our heart aches, makes our eyes tear, makes our body dances. Sometimes after a long working day, all I need is a nice song to cleanse my tired soul.

This is it! One of the best songs in 2011. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.



P/S: The guy proposed to his girlfriend using memes reminded me of this song. =)