Before 2010~

At the eve of 2010,

I reflected back of what I've done for the past years, and found that 2009 was a great year to remember, a year full with discoveries and growth.

2009 was the year I finally graduated from Monash, receiving the expensive cert from the university and finally put a step forward to the working world. A world which is so different from what I've experienced before, and I am still taking time to adapt and learn. On top of that, 2009 is a blessing year for me, as I have met him along the journey of my life. Thank to God's countless blessing, we have made our way through even if the path doesn't seem easy, at all.

For 2010,
I just wish to continue what I am doing now, and wish to seek improvement and realization along the way, and wish to grow with him. As what my friend said, resolutions are the same every year, they only make a significance when you started to take action. Thus no more crap here. A summary for my 2010's resolution,

*Try my best in everything that I am doing, care more for the people around me, and stay healthy and be happy*

Cheers everyone, happy 2010. With love. =)

离别的机场~

*Crying baby*

离别总是悲伤的。。。

原以为自己会坚强
但当我挥手跟你说再见时
心，仿佛在滴血
恨时间与距离把我们分开
更恨现实的不允许
一转眼，我已泪流满脸。

没有你在我身边
周围的空气仿佛变得不一样了
只剩下冷清的空气，和自己
想起几分钟前你还在我身边
现在的我独自坐在一旁
顿时觉得很孤单
眼泪，只能不停的流。

我问，
想念一个人的时候会是怎样？
你说，
会想起大家一起做过的东西，
或是想像未来会怎样。

我说，
想念一个人的时候，
心会变得很孤单，
仿佛缺了什么似的。

我不去想未来会怎样
只希望时间快点过去
直到我们再见面的那一刻。

人总是会有孤单的时候
因为每个人心里都有牵挂的人
而我心里的那个人
正是你。。。

P/S: 对不起，我只是个脆弱的女人。

Air Asia~

I do not travel often, and if I do, I do not usually travel with Air Asia. If I am not mistaken, this was the 2nd time I travel with Air Asia. The first experience was abit disastrous. I remembered going to Guang Zhou with my family about 2 years back, flying with Air Asia. Perhaps the weather was too terrible that day, or perhaps the pilot was half asleep, the plane was shaking very terribly.

We passengers, especially me was in panic, didn't know what happened and didn't know if I am gonna end my life in the plane. Then during landing, I remember having a very bad headache, mostly due to the imbalance pressure inside and outside of the plane. At the time I was only hoping to get down from the plane as soon as possible before I started puking all around.

That was my first experience with Air Asia and that gave me an impression that "cheap things are not good things". If you translate the phrase into Cantonese, it means "平也无好也", LoLx.

This time to Sandakan was my second time with Air Asia. The feeling was surprisingly very different from my first time. LCCT has expanded quite a bit since the last time I visited. Now they have Old Town and Starbucks. I remember few years back they only have McD for people to hang around.

On top of that, perhaps I am too tired, I didn't realize anything abnormal. Once I hopped into the plane, I fell asleep almost immediately. Didn't know who was sitting next to me, didn't know when they started asking for food services, didn't know when they started the duty free thing. A pig, ya I know.

Nonetheless, after about 2 hours of sleep, I was awaken by the young man sitting next to me. He was talking to himself, playing with a stack of cards. Apparently he is a magician, trying to make full use of his time to practice his skill. Interested, we started talking and he started showing me some *magics*, which I think is unbelievable. It is kinda fun thou, not that we can bump into a magician all the time. =P

After some free entertainment, it is time for landing already. He left his card to me and said I can call him anytime I want, if I need his service. LoLx. Quite a fun guy.

So here I am, Sandakan, the gateway for eco-tourism in Sabah.

Irresponsible me~

Ops...

I think I scratched my car again. This time without me knowing. My dad marched into my room with all the storm and lightning on top of his head, he asked what happened to the car again. I was rather innocent, because seriously, I didn't know I scratched again. Then he said I should be responsible to what happened to the car, he is not going to bear the cost for me anymore. It should be a lesson for me.

Well, I didn't said much when he was scolding all the way, because I know, whether I realize or not, I did scratch the car, or someone scratched me. When he finished and finally walked out, I started to trace back what I've done for the past few days and thought of the possibility of scratching my car again.

And guess what, I think it was the night where I had company dinner. I walked out of the hotel slightly high and imbalance. It took me a while to find the car and I started the engine, put to D and was about to drive forward. But then something was blocking in front. I pressed hard on the accelerator to try overcome the barrier but it still didn't move. Then I realized it was the movable parking space that was blocking my way.

But then perhaps I was slightly drunk, I didn't put much attention on it. I just reversed and get my way out. Once I was out of the car park, honestly speaking I already forgot about the incidence just now.

That is why when dad questioned me, I really didn't know what have happened to my car. Sigh... and I can't said he was wrong. In fact, I am the one at fault. @@" Such irresponsible me.

P/S: Don't drink if you cannot drink.

Miscommunication~

Miscommunication comes in many forms. But most of them are mainly because each individual has their own way of thinking and own way of conveying message. Things that are right for me may not be your cup of tea. We live at the same housing garden doesn't mean we have the same style of living. People are all different.

Today I have learned a few things. Once again this proves my level maturity. There is still a huge room for growth as I think I didn't handle the situation well. Regardless of what I hear, from the first, second or third parties, everyone is having a different storyline, even if the tittle of the story is the same. It is all based on own judgment and analytical thinking.

Perhaps all the while I am having some forms of pre-judgment, so my analytical thinking was bias. Perhaps somebody wanted to convey the wrong message, so to mess up the condition. Perhaps at the end of the day, nobody is doing anything with intention, it was just a miscommunication among human, plus different perceptions in analyzing an incidence.

On top of that, sometimes miscommunication may be arise because someone is caring for another person, but in a different way. This once again comes back to the first point where every human is different. It is important to respect each human as an individual with different kinda thinking. As although we share the same set of genetic materials, but our philosophy of life is largely deviated.

Thus, even if you disagree with one another, or you are trying to express your care to one another, always remember to put respect at the frontline, and no judgment. Things that you disgaree with, things that do not work on you, may not be the same for other individuals. Therefore, do not judge. And by the way, who are you to judge and criticize?

Well, regardless. Regardless of who is right or who is wrong. There are a few main things that I have realized tonight:

1) Learn to respect.
2) Learn not to judge.
3) Learn not to think too much.
4) Learn to be a better woman.

P/S: Once and for all, the past will be remained in the past.

Starting of December 09~

Today is the first day of my late menstruation. As usual, I feel pain and weak. Unable to focus while the doctors are talking to my senior and manager, I was just standing aside fake smiling, and pretended that I was very interested with what they were saying. Although my mind was somewhere else waiting to go home. A tiring day for me.

Today is the day where my dear gets to know his results. He wanted me to check for him first, honestly my palm started to sweat while waiting for the page to load. Although in my heart I know he is not going to fail. And as anticipated, he did well for his final! All efforts were paid off (although I not sure how much effort he has put in... Muahaha~). A happy day for him.

Sincerely, I am proud of you darling. I am really happy for you. 2009 will surely end with joy and 2010 will be full of joys too. Gambateh! ^^

P/S: Why woman has to suffer from menstrual pain? @@