Saturday, May 30, 2009

Truely Inspired...~

"Physical contribution alone is no longer sufficient to help the poor, it is only through proper education that we can break the cycle of poverty, that we can change the mentality and lifestyle of the people..." (Hannah Yeoh, 2009).

"Breaking the cycle of poverty through education"

This is the most meaningful message conveyed by the young Subang Jaya assemblywoman today for the launching of "Charity Walk for the Children". Seriously, what she said was indeed very true. No matter how many visits we pay to the homes, how much money we donate to them, all these alone are not sufficient. They are physical *materials* that can hardly change the mindset of those people. Yea no doubt they will be very happy with the sum of money you donated to them, but that doesn't mean this can change the way they think of life, the way they want their future to be.

According to Hannah, in USJ1, there are 8000 households living in 4 blocks of low cost apartments, 24 people are staying under the same roof, under one unit, everyone has to take turn to sleep and some don't even get enough money to eat. Yea, in USJ, a place that we naively thought was over-developed and where everyone is rich or at least above average. Some of the volunteers went over to that area to offer free tuition, when the children were asked what they wanted to be in the future, guess whats their answer? They said they wanted to be Mat Rempit. This is no joke dudes. You see, the mentality of these children is not right, they are being influenced by their living environment, where Mat Rempit is their hero and everyone wants to be the hero.

Just in case if you do not know what is Mat Rempit. They are people who participate in illegal street racing. Also, sometimes they perform crazy acts for fun such as superman (lying flat on the seat), wikang and scorpion (Wikipedia, 2009).

So you see, the only way to save the poor souls of these kids is through proper education. It is only through education where we can change the mindset of the people, where we can save the future generations.

I am inspired. I feel that for a young woman like her, she is indeed someone who we can learn from. Look at our environment now. The weather is so hot, and this indirectly causes the bush and forest burning and therefore haze. What we do is to stay indoor, on the aircond and continue to live in denial. This at the same time emits more toxic air to the atmosphere and thus the weather is helplessly becoming hotter. You see, it is just a domino's effect, where one affects another and so on.

Now I started to believe what scientists have predicted, that in the coming 30 years, we will not have enough clean water and clean air, we will not have enough land for food, there will be more people starving as the population increases, we will be using up all the gas and petroleum and the list goes on... Probably in the coming 50 years, the world is so polluted that you will see people walking with an oxygen tank, or being wrapped into a bubble, like someone who is immuno-compromised. Isn't it pathetic? I thought there are still billions of years to go before our earth dies off... But... If due to human activities that the earth is lethally deteriorating, I wish I will not be living that long to witness.

Perhaps, I mean perhaps, I can start my career as a politician. I wish I will have enough strength to change the mindset of the people, to save our country and the world before it is too late. As what Hannah has said, she alone is not able to make any changes, it is through the contribution of everyone, that we can make a difference. I hope I can be like her one day.

Friday, May 29, 2009

~Healthier Lifestyle?

After one whole semester of excuses...
A semester of slacking...
And seeing that my fats are accumulating...
Bouncing around when I am walking...
Colonizing my waist and thigh...
Probably in my blood too...
Eventually blocking my heart...
I think it is time to exercise already... =.=
Else... I can see my future as...

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But...
Looking at the weather right now...
I don't think I can get my mood on...
The haze and the choking smoke...
The risk outweighed the benefits...
Probably yea I can get to keep myself slightly more active...
But probably I will die of lung cancer...
WTF... =.=

And I think it is time to cut down on my food intake...
Especially junks!
Not going to buy cup noodles anymore!
They are just too tempting and *sedative* at night...
And lure me to make unforgivable mistakes...
I counted the plastic disposable forks...
(Becoz I don't quite like the idea of pouring hot water to plastic cups)...
And I already had 5 cup noodles in a month! (FYI for supper only!!!)...
And only 2 miserable yogurt as you can see from the picture... =.=
(Becoz I usually eat yogurt with fruits... )

WTH... =.=

No way! I am NOT going to buy cup noodles anymore...
And I have a few packets of snacks...
Double Decker classic cheese and Twisties tomato flavor...
Tell me if you want...
Coz I think sometimes some donation is good... ^^


Baaaa... After so much talking and guess what I am eating now...
Fried salmon from Sakae...
Erm... if you ask me why I am eating that at home...
I can only said daddy taught me from young not to waste food...
So I kinda *tapao* it yesterday from Sakae... =P

Everyone don't puke ya... ^^ Still very nice... ^^

Last but not least...
Wish the water supply will be back to normal soon...
As they promised at 7pm...
But you know la... Malaysia Boleh...
=.=

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

26.05.2009~

Today...
I over-slept...
I did not study much for my test... and...
I think I have screwed it...

Today...
I came to uni... and...
I saw a leng zai intern from A Cut Above smoking...
Feel so potong steam... =.=

Today...
I witnessed what encouragement can lead us to...
How a girl is brave enough to stand on the stage...
and get her hair shaved...
Girls... Yes...
They are girls...

"Shave me save me" ^^

Today...
I had some hot fried snacks...
Which I promised myself not to have it anymore...
Once again... I am lack of self-discipline...

Today...
I have said several F words to him...
I have decided to forget and forgo...
I have decided to stop devaluing myself...
I have decided to move on...
I have decided to live a happier life... and...
I have decided...

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

The changing world~

We are now experiencing global warming...
Something that is catastrophic enough to kill us all...
To destroy the only living habitat for us human in this universe...
Don't believe me?
Here is the proofs...

Nowadays the weather is soooo hot...
And you started wondering why the sun is getting bigger and bigger...
Agree?

Nowadays you see many fogging going on...
And you started wondering if the mosquito is over-breeding...
Agree?

Nowadays if it does rain...
It does not last long... Usually they come and go...
And often they come with thunder and lighting...
And you started wondering if there is a war outside...
Agree?

Nowadays bacteria and viruses are gaining power against us...
Many people die and millions of them suffer from the diseases they caused...
And you started wondering why human is getting more and more vulnerable each day...
Agree?

Nowadays the crime rate is increasing...
Rob, rape, con, murder, drugs...
Anything that you can possibly think of...
And you started wondering why people are getting so mutated and crazy...
Agree?

Nowadays people are getting more paranoid...
And at the same time helpless with the conditions that we are facing now...
And you started wondering why we ended in such conditions...
Agree?

These are just the *micro* conditions that we are facing now...
Something that we can feel it...
Not to mention those *macro* ones where people tend to ignore...
Such as heat waves, ocean warming, glacier melting, ozone depleting, droughts, fire, extinction, war... and many more...

While human claimed to be the smartest and most intelligent beings on this earth...
It is ironic when we are the one that damage the earth...
Shall we start to do something or let the earth dies eventually?

At least now...
The choice is still on our hand...
The faith of the future generations...
We can still protect them if we start to act now...
Else...
It is time for us to create a *glamour* history for destroying the earth...

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Braces~

Went for a monthly check up today...
After a brief examination...
Doctor was explaining to me that he wants me to be prepared...
That for the coming few months...
I will have a very ugly tooth arrangement...
I was like... W.H.Y????

Figure 1: Showing you the gap between teeth
(This is not mine... I feel too gross to show you all mine)... =P

He said I got a gap in between of my two teeth on the right... (Figure 1)
Where the center line was out...
That is why now he got a big plan in mind...
He wanna move my tooth one by one to the left...
To move the gap to the left...
Which eventually will be hidden in the internal part of my mouth... On the left side...
Which means... before that could actually happen...
Somehow someday you will see the gap in the middle...
Like those ah ma without a tooth... (Figure 2)
Oh my... Sobssss...
And I tell you what...
The effect was instantaneous...
I can see the gap moving to the left already...
That was extremely fast you know...
I just went to see the doctor today... >_<
Figure 2: Yea... It will be like Madonna... Kekeke...
But mine will be much bigger I think... Sobs... More like ah ma la... :S

Doctor knows I am eager to get rid of this whole braces treatment thingy...
That is why he *encourage* me by saying that this will be the last phase of my treatment...
Once the gap has disappeared to the left internal side of my mouth...
You are free to go...
You would not have to come and see my face every month already...
Although my expression is indifferent...
My heart was actually roaring...
All my cells were celebrating...
Though it is still abit too early...

Argh... another half a year...
Think should be quite fast la...
Kekekekeke... :P
Everyone please bear with me for another half a year... Lolx...

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Demotivated~

Mind is full of thoughts...
Disoriented and confused...
Conflicting thoughts...
Civil war among my brain cells...
Battling against the right and wrong and the middle...
The black and the white and the gray...
Hard to reach a common ground...
There is no agreement of what is right and what is wrong...

Life is hard... I think I cannot agree more with this...
And the hardest part is that...
I don't know how to communicate effectively with others...
If there is a unit for self-expression...
I think I will fail miserably...

Throughout 23 years of life...
I have been told... have learned from my past experiences that I must know how to express myself, my thoughts and feelings...
Yea... Somehow I am getting better with this...
But the outcome is discouraging...
Different from what I thought it should be...

Demotivated...
I am stuck in front of the door...
The door to heaven and a better life...
Hand stretched out to reach the door knob...
But I have no courage to turn the door knob and open the door...
Motion frozen...
Not that I do not want to...
It is just that it takes me a lot before I can open the door...

What shall I do?
What is the right thing to do?
How do I know which is the right thing to do?

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Past tense~

When I see you again...
The feeling is awkward...
I don't know...
I just feel uncomfortable...
I think same to you too...
Nothing much to talk about...
Just the usual "How are you?"
Well... It have been years after all...
Don't know what will happen...
Just wishing you all the best...
Take care of yourself man... ^^

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Emotionally Overwhelmed~

*Listen first before you ever judge*

After the meeting with J, I have only one conclusion, no matter who was at fault and who was not, there is only one conclusion for me, that is I am still an unwise person. Well, before the discussion I was actually cursing J, saying that he was the one in fault and he was the one that jump into conclusion without any effort of clarification and he was the one that acted like a kid. In fact, I am the one that acted like a kid, I saved my report as "J _ go eat shit"... Lolx... So who was immature now?

But seeing from his side, after listening to what he said, I personally think that he might not be entirely wrong. Well, he followed the procedures as well. He booked through the facilities, he made sure that everything was proper. And we did the same as well, we booked through C&S, we also made sure that everything was proper. You see, the thing was, both sides assumed that we had control during that time slot, whereby during that one hour, we are allowed to perform and they are allowed to do their presidential debate. You see, we both went through the correct channel and procedures, it was just that, the problem actually lied on C&S to be honest, that they did not confirm the venue for us.

Don't really care who was at fault. Just that, through this incident, I feel that I am still very far from being a wise person. Well, when I asked myself, did I accuse J also before getting any clarification? I did accuse him, I did say that he was wrong, I did say that he should apologize as well...

Hmm... Well... the problem was not settled. But everyone agreed to forget about it and move on. I hope that I learn something from this incident... It is just that, when something happens, it is often not the fault of one party, it is better to think from the other side as well, before judging anyone...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

The reality of Life~

Today I have learned another lesson of life...
To be more exact...
Today I have reinforced my understanding of life...
Life is all about reality and reality is cruel...>_<

I understand how much you wanted to launch your campaign...
How much effort you have put in to make this event a success...
I never say you are wrong...
But please...
Sometimes before you ever say something...
Think of others first...

We are having event also...
We have put in effort in making this a success also...
We also try to achieve what we wanted to achieve...
Life is not made for you alone...
You don't live in this planet alone...
Please make sure you understand this...

Well... I believe somehow there was some forms of misunderstanding...
You said you have booked the place and you resume control...
So did we... We followed the correct procedure...
Double and triple confirmed with the associated department...
Thus by right we have also booked that place... and we should resume control as well...

You said we are asking something that did not meant to be ours...
But please... if you ever think from our side...
We are asking something that is meant to be us...
And you... tried to manipulate what you have said...
Tried to cover your ass from the problem...
Is this what a president should do?
Or this is just human nature and I have been too idealist to think for others?

I cannot say that we have no wrong...
I know somehow he was not right for speaking the *F* word...
But if you see from his situation...
Do you think that he was entirely in fault?

And you, you mentioned to us that there will be nothing on today...
And we are free to do our play today...
Well... Whatever you want to say...
If you insist that you are not part of the debate,
then why I see your people there?
Why I see your people shouting there like nuts just now?
Please... I am not a kid anymore...
I know how to differentiate the right and the wrong...
I *wish* you all the best in your whatever election...

As for the J guy...
I wonder if he sees himself in the mirror everyday...
Who the *fish* is him?
You as the person who in charge of the event...
Don't you think that you are suppose to settle the problem but not asking me"What is my problem?"
Well... I know we have been abit harsh...
But you too right? Do you think you are right?
Who the hell you think you are?
To request an apology from us?
While on the way home today...
Go check out some stores and grab yourself a mirror...
Please... you are nothing but just another piece of shit...

As for the M association...
Well... I am as disappointed as usual...
This incident only further reinforce my believe...
People in M association are just a piece of ignorant shit...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Thank You Mama~

Today is mother's day and I as the daughter, should at least do something to show my gratitude to her. But instead, the whole day I was sitting in front of my lappie, doing research and trying to finish my malaria report as soon as possible. Because one glance at my planner for week 10, I am gonna faint. @@ If I don't finish my work fast, you may not be able to see me on week 11 already. So, work work and work!

My mommy on the other hand, despite the fact that today is her big day and she should take her rest, she worked harder for us, especially for me and my sister. My sister is preparing for her mid-term exam, so she also sat on the table whole day to cramp all the biology stuffs into her brain. Mommy then went to grocery with my brothers, bought a lot of fruits for us. She said we need some immune boost during tough week like this. So sweet. And now, she is asking me: "You sure you don't want more mango? One is enough?"... Oh my, thanks mom... I love you... =)

Also, once she came back from grocery, she started cooking behind (although we are suppose to have dinner outside today to celebrate mom's day). She is cooking for us. Both me and my sis are staying outside and she is pre-cooking for us so that we get to eat whenever we want, just by reheating the food. Oh mom... I love you... =)

I am really a bad daughter... Probably because I am a typical Chinese, I find it hard to express my love and respect to my mom... I just want to let her know that mom, I love you alotz... Muakz..

Move On~

学会放下,才会幸福

My student life is gonna end soon...
Soon... I will enter another stage of life...
Meeting new people...
Hopefully meeting something different...
Something inspiring...

But still...
When I turn my head and look back...
I still see you there...
Waving to me...
You said this is life...
You said we have to move on...
And I told you I will move on...
I told you I know this is just life...
Nothing much we can do to change it...

But.. It is just not so easy as I think it is...
Perhaps... I am not as strong as I think I am...
Indeed... If you know me well...
I am just not strong...
I am fragile... weak... and vulnerable...

Somehow...
I will move on of course...
As you said, this is life...
But please give me some time...
I am not a superwoman after all...
Wish: All the best to you and to me...
Wish 2: A better life...

Friday, May 8, 2009

~Students nowadays~

Well, I remember during my first and second years in uni, some of the lecturers are just too lazy to give us the lecture notes. Their excuses: First we can do readings by ourselves or DIY notes, second, which I think is more valid, they are just lazy, to even post up to the student drive. >.<
So what was our solution? If you join one of our classes, you will see majority of the students there busy copying, copying every slide and every single word from the slide, lolx... No one actually listens to the lecturer, everyone just copying feverishly. Lolx, well, I am one of them too. I think this is just the "kiasu" mentality of the students, whereby we worried that we might have left out some details, if we don't copy the whole thing. But when come to exam, how many of us actually read all the notes that we copied? Lolx... I didn't...

But then now, things changed. I am taking some third year units with my juniors now, as to complete my double degree course. As usual, lecturers are still as lazy as before, but students are now smarter. Lolx, instead of copying all the notes, students now use camera to snap the slides. You will see students listening to the lecturer, and once the lecturer change to the next slide, everyone will start snapping pictures. It is just like, a conference where you can see all the flash lights coming from all directions. Lolx... Well, this is kinda useful right? So I follow also...



Kakaka~ so students nowadays, we are more *in*... Notes are no longer in papers, power point or pdf format, now our notes are in jpeg format. =P

Sunday, May 3, 2009

~Menstrual Pain~

Argh... Menstruation is driving me nuts! The pain is getting worst! I cannot concentrate on anything! Was chatting with a friend online, and he said that the hot weather is driving him crazy, well... To girls like us, not only that the weather is crazy, but the menstrual pain can be much worst! Argh! @.@

I used to be quite tolerable with menstrual pain, as it does not affect me much, both physically and mentally. But nowadays, I think they have somehow found some ways to attack my pain sensory receptors, nowadays the pain is so just unbearable. >_<>
Look, I am stronger than you humans... Kekeke (smirk**)~

But come to look at their anatomy, well... very similar with ours, but of coz our reproductive system is much more developed. Lolx, thats y we suffer more!*Pure imagination* =P

Lolx... Ok then... Just gotto bear with the pain and start doing my report (again).. =.= Due date is tomorrow, but I wonder what time? 5.00pm? Then I can work till 4.45pm (as usual)... =P