Don't take me for granted~

I always remind myself not to take things for granted, because somehow, I have been through some hard times and I know sometimes, good things don't just pop up in front of us. It is always good to be thankful and to appreciate what we have in life.

But there are times when people tend to play a fool with you, try to take you for granted. Well, for being my *close friend* for so many years, I hope you know my line and don't go beyond. I hate people when they try to take me for granted. @@ Or... always accuse me for not putting in effort to maintain the friendship or whatsoever. Well, I respect your way of thinking and how you see things and I hope you too. It is just very frustrating when you point your finger on me and said that I have done nothing while you, sitting there and goyang kaki. Please, before you ever say something, please look at yourself and see what you have contributed. I have no idea what is in your mind and why you have this kind of thinking.

Also, as you said, for being your close friend, you don't mind to talk straight to me. Well, same here. For being my *close friend* I hope you know when I am serious and when I am kidding. There are some issues you know that I am taking them ultra seriously, so please don't ask me to do silly things regarding these serious issues, they are not *dramas* for you, or for you all to see. @@

Never Going to Quit

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

I hate studying~

Okay, lets have a breakdown. First pathology is not only the study of disease. This includes:

1) Haematology (study of blood)
2) Histology (study of tissue)
3) Cytology (study of cells)
4) Oncology (study of cancer)
5) Parasitology (study of worms)
6) Clinical chemistry (laboratory diagnosis)

And... The sad thing is, I have to cramp everything into my brain in 3 days (today already counted as a day). Sobs, I underestimate this unit, I thought it is fun and easy. I mean comparatively easy, but in the end, I wanna vomit!

Very headache now. Too much of information in my brain. My brain cells are working OT now, all in battle mode, gonna die of hypoxia and info-toxicity overload... @@

S.O.S.....

我的心 值得被真心对待~

我在杂志上看到一篇很感人也很写实的文章。她只是一位十六岁的小妹妹，可是看得出来她的想法挺成熟的。对啊，我们每个人都值得被真心对待，如果眼前的感情注定不是属于我们的，那学着放开也未免不是一件好事。还有哦，如果喜欢一个人，也要让他/她知道，不要让自己有后悔的机会。只要相信，人生就会变得精彩。大家都要加油哦。。。 ^^v

***两颗被分开的心***

***** *****
我们之间隔着一道墙
它坚硬无比
无论我怎么努力
拳打脚踢
用尽所有能力
所有工具
它
还是分开了你和我的心

其实我明白的
感情不能勉强
如果你不想
我也无能为力

站在人生的交叉路口
我一度怀疑
是否该继续等待
或是将一切放开
从新再来

我恨我自己
犹豫不决
我更恨我自己
对你难以忘怀
但是我知道
我的心
值得被真心对待
如果这是一场无止尽的等待
那我选择离开
毕竟
没有了你
人生还是可以很精彩

别了
愿你我都找到我们各自的快乐
愿。幸福

Scary H1N1~

*Influenza Pandemic... again... @@*

Latest report from the local newspaper, there are 3 locally transmitted H1N1 in Malaysia already and one primary school was closed for a week. Currently the number of infected patients has break the record of 50 people, while about 33 people are still in hospitals and more than 2500 people are being quarantined at home. Well... seems like the condition is getting out of hand... @@

The health minister is trying to do something, the media is reporting everyday for the latest progress and updates and you can even find many notices in Monash toilets, warning people to be more careful and take extra precautions. But then seems like the level of awareness among the public is still relative low, many people don't seem to care *yet*.

What more scary is that WHO has just announced that this disease has raised to level 6 emergency, meaning that it is now a globally spreading disease, like it or not, that's the fact of it.

Well... Just that when a disease becomes pandemic, it is not merely the responsibility of the Health Ministry and medical personnel. It is a shared responsibility among the community whereby only through co-operation that we can control the spread of this disease. Don't be an ignorant ass or else the fire may burn your ass eventually. @@

Simple things we can do:
1) Watch out for the symptoms
--> Fever
--> Cough and sneeze
--> Fatigue
--> Body aches
--> Running nose
--> Lack of appetite
--> Diarrhea (lao sai) and vomiting in some cases

@@ As long as you have some symptoms listed above, go see doctor please...

2) Get an alcohol-based or any anti-microbe hand wash
--> It is seriously just an extra step only...
--> Especially after nature call or pee pee... :P

3) If you are sick, stay at home

4) Get some face masks whenever possible
--> My friend said a lame joke the other day...
--> She said now everyone can wear double masks already, one for the haze another one for the influenza flu... (Yong, 2009)
--> Well, kinda true thou, you are always welcome to do that... :P

5) Be more informed
--> Internet is not for Facebook, msn, online games, blogging... only.
--> Lolx... Surf the net and get the latest information la...

Well, that day while I was sitting for my International Business paper, there was a question asking about the impact of globalization. I should have written this one also --> Diseases spread faster because of globalization. @@

Happy daddy's day... ^^

I remember once during my high school time, my chemistry teacher was telling us how her son was not behaving himself. He was still a kid at that time and he liked to play with light switch and extension plug. My teacher was mad at him and no matter how many times she scolded him, he still acted the same way. Kaka... (so much like me and my dad). Then she finally decided to just let him play, because only when he was struck once, he would know that playing with plugs is dangerous. And yea... He did kena once when he was playing with wet hands. Even it was only a minor electric shock, but it was enough to give him a lesson, he did not play with switch from that time onwards... Kaka... Being a parent is not easy...

My dad always scolds me for not calling back home when I am staying in hostel. To me I think that there is no need to call everyday or to report myself everyday, so no matter how many times he scolded me, his daughter remained the same bullshit attitude. Lolx...

Also, when I went out with friends, although he didn't set a curfew like what time I should be back, but usually I just take that for granted, I came back usually at midnight or beyond that. Dad called of course, but then sometimes I didn't even pick up his calls (Don't be shock, at least I did that very often last time). Lolx... I always feel that, I am a young girl, don't lock me in a bird cage...

But now, kaka... I truely understand his feeling. Like my chemistry teacher's son, I finally learned when I been through the same situation as my dad. My brother was a young boy, at the age of 20 of course he got his own social activities and wants to stay all day out with friends, or only come back after midnight, which to him is nothing at all. I have been through that age as well, I understand how irritating it can be when our parents are trying to restrain us.

But now, at this time when I am typing this, he is still outside. Called him many times and he didn't pick up my calls. My pressure is building and when he finally picked up my call, the first thing I do was to scold him and ask him to come back right now. Everyone is worried, including me. Kaka...

I finally know that being a parent is so not easy. Children always never think from the parents' side, but they demand parents to think from their sides. I am one of them, and today I finally understand, actually parents are worry for their kids, like I worry for my brother, like my dad worries for him. It is not that they want to control us.

Sorry dad, sorry mom... Sorry for being a selfish kid... :)
Wow... There is still a lot to learn in life... Hope the strength is with me... Gambateh! ^^

Sick~

o oh~ I don't know what is happening...
My heart is throbbing for the whole day...
This looks like a hypertension to me...
Even before I took coffee of the day...

My brain become dysfunctional when my heart is working too hard...
Same goes to my body cells...
I feel weak... Very very weak...
And exhausted... As if I didn't sleep for days...
Plus... my left breast is aching...
When I feel it... I feel something hard... @@ (Symptom 1)
I mean comparatively hard... as compared to the right one...
@@ What the hell is this?
And it is painful... :S

Also, when I compare them physically with a mirror...
I saw the left one is darker...
Ops... symptom 2...
Shit lor... What the hell is this...
Sobs... I am only at my early 20s...
Don't tell me something that I don't want to know...
Sobs... But well... will get it checked after my papers...
I promised... sobs...

Plus... The weather today is damn sucky...
I think this contributed to my overall weakness...
Sick of this contaminated world...
Screw you!
If I am given a chance to reborn...
I will not want to... If the place is this earth again...
Sick! Sick! Sick! >.<

Life is too much for my Bra~

Muahaha... Just a bit of joke for those who are sitting for exam right now... LoLx...

Counting down two days for my first and second papers... Gambateh!!!

Imperfect~

*Selfish*

Dad was right... I am selfish...
I still have a lot to learn...
Serving the society alone is not enough to make me a better person...
This also comes from family and friends...
They way you treat them...
Shows the level of maturity...

My parents said that I am selfish...
I did not visit my grandma for ages...
Either from my dad's or my mom's side...
From my mom's side...
My grandma has got a bone fracture recently...
And she was in the hospital for 2 weeks...
I as her granddaughter...
I only visited her once...
When she was admitted to the hospital...
From my dad's side...
I only go to my grandma's house when I have to...
When I have no choice...
Not only that...
Even to my parents as well...

Next to my friends...
She is right... I am selfish... I only think for myself...
Always I am the one that wanted others to *suit* me...
Suit my time and my mood...
Indeed she is very right...

Often, I only see my own problems...
Amplifying my own problems and do not see others...
Like this coming exam...
I complain that I do not have enough time...
While most of the time I am slacking around...
When comes to the very last minute...
I start to freak out...
This is the consequence dear...
The cycle is repeating...
Every semester it is the same...

Well... It is not too late to learn...
We human are constantly learning...
I am not perfect...
But I will improve to be a better person... =D

Continue study then... Gambateh!!!

Coward!

There are people who like to live in denial. No matter how much you try to provoke them or encourage them, they will still choose to hide in the shell, stay in the comfort zone and never wanted to face the reality. I have seen people like this in my life and for God sake, they are getting very annoying. Don't challenge my limit.

These kinda people, never have the encouragement to face the reality, or the problem. When things happen, they tend to run, avoid, hide and blame. Not even once that they ever thought of facing the problems. What they will do is to complain behind one's back and hope to get support from others, but never once they are brave enough to face it and solve the problem. Sorry to say, I am getting very fed up with this kinda people.

I am not going to care anymore. I have already done my part and it is up to you if you still wanted to stay in the shell. I don't care and please do whatever you want to do. It is no longer my business. I move on. So long.

Congratz ^^

Congratulation!

This morning I have received an email from Garry, attached with the list of awards that we have won from the Leo Forum. Actually I am very happy, because our sweat and tears, our hard work was recognized and appreciated. ^^

Of course, I still believe that in Leo we are here to serve and learn, award is always the secondary. It is not the driving force for us to organize projects or so. We pledge as a Leo member, we are trying our best to serve the community and learn to be a betterman during the process. Today, I still believe on this. But at the same time, I cannot deny the fact that award is a form of motivation, a form of encouragement for all of us to move further, to do better.

Once again, a big congratz to all the Leos who have received the awards...
Hope all of us will continue the spirit of serving...
For the betterment of our community, our country and ourselves. =D

Proud to be one of the Leos...
ROAR ROAR ROAR!!!

Sorry~

Sorry... For hurting you...
Sorry... Because I don't know what is the right thing to do...
Sorry... The only thing I can do is to follow my heart...

Sorry... Before that I was still misunderstanding you...
Sorry... I thought you wanted something like what we had in the past...
That freaked me out...
And you know that freaked me out...

But even today I know we have all grown...
We have all become more mature and we are serious...
But I still cannot make that move...
Because my heart... Somehow...
I have lost it...
And I am still having a hard time to get it back...

You said I deserve better...
You said I should let go and move on...
You said I should consider *us*...
But... This is just unfair for you...
In the end... We may all get hurt...
Please... Forgive me...
I am just a stupid idiot...

Tess Gerritsen~

Wanted so much to read something non-academic based now...
"Keeping the Dead" by Tess Gerritsen will be a good one...
In fact I like her books very much...
Medical thriller... Serial killer... Mad and insane... Horror...
Sometimes her books can seriously freak me out...
And if you cannot take it... It is advisable to not read her books at night...
Sigh... I want to get that book... NOW... >.<

Killing me softly~

Location: Rawang
Type of house: Double story semi-D
Temperature: Unknown, but very hot
Current body condition: Perspirating and unable to focus
Study progress: None

The weather is so damn hot... I don't know what is the exact temperature, perhaps close to 40 degree Celsius? I know global warming is *global*, as it can be felt in anywhere of the world. But back in Sunway I am staying in 24th floor, much higher than the height of a double story semi-D, which for God's sake I have no idea of the exact height either, the impact is less intense. Much much less intense. In the afternoon, I can still pass the day with a fan, but in Rawang, I don't see the possibility of staying comfortable in the afternoon without getting the aircond on.

And guess what? I hate the idea of on-ing the aircond for long hours. Not that I am afraid of getting dry skin or whatsoever, but it is because this is a causal-effect thing. Everyone stays indoor, on the aircond and start emitting more greenhouse gasses. In the end the weather is getting hotter and accelerate the stupid global warming process @@... Argh!!!

And guess what again... I did not on the aircond despite the stupid hot weather, rediculously thinking to reduce my carbon footprint while others are happily enjoying the breeze of cold air. In the end, I cannot concentrate at all in my study, suana-ing in my room, my lappie is protesting because its inner cooling system was long dead and it cannot take the hot weather any longer than I do @@ Argh!!!

Stupid me. @@ But still even knowing that I am stupid, I will still try to reduce my carbon footprint, even though I know my contribution alone is bloodly insignificant. Truely support tree planting!!! Lets plant back the trees that we destroyed... Please...

Reality~

Reality 1:
Guys like leng lui...
Girls like leng zai...
But not all guys/ girls will fall in love with leng lui/ leng zai...

Reality 2:
People tend to be more friendly when they wanted to ask for favor...

Reality 3:
People tend to take things for granted. We tend to forget our lessons in the past. When history repeats, when we are in pain again, we regretted. But we tend to forget when the pain is over.

Reality 4:
Joeanne hates rude people. Especially to people who were given enough education to learn moral and be civilized.

Reality 5:
The world is unfair.

(To be continued)

Survival KL 09~

Sorry I got too much things to write today... Lolx...
Well... Just a small promo over here...

Everyone please visit Survival KL 09: Save Our Earth!!!


First the expo date is from 28th April to 14th August...
Monashians please don't say you have no time...
You can always go after exams... Kekeke...

Second it is open daily, from 9am to 6pm...
Non-Monashians and working adults please don't say you have no time too...
You can always go during weekends...

Third it is located at Pusat Science Negara...
It is located at KL somewhere and should be easy to find...
If no private transport there is always public transports...
Or carpool... Whatever...
So please don't say you have no transport or don't know how to go...

Forth is it the first in Asia...
Associated with Science Museum of London...
So don't always look down at Malaysia...
Go support...

Kekeke...
For your information... We will be still surviving in 2050...
But with different lifestyles and in different ways...
This expo is going to tell you how you are going to survive in 2050...
Although by that time we should be around 60++ le... @@
Lolx...

So lets move! Don't be so lazy le... =P
The website: http://www.survival.com.my/

I have got a new toy... v^^v

A few days back I went into a 100 Yen shop in Taipan...
Guess what I found... Kakaka...
I found a small little cutie pot...
The size is just nice... Not too much not too little...
Then the design is cute...
White color as the base... My favorite color...
Then with some Italian wordings in light blue...
(I am not sure if they are Italian wordings thou...=P)
Functionally... It can be used with induction cooker as well as normal stove...
And the price... 100 Yen shop... so it is rm4.90 only...
Perfect... ^^
Finally I found the pot that I wanted... Lolx...
Now I understand Christopher's feeling when he found the American continent...
Lolx... Happy happy...

*My lunch in a pot: mushroom soup with broccoli and sausages... ^^*
*Drink: Green tea...*

*My cutie pot...*

So this once again proved that Japanese are more innovative...
And they are better businessmen...
Because they know the market better...
There are so many people like me...
Students staying outside...
Single working adults...
Sometimes when we are fed up with the outside foods...
It is always a good alternative to cook...
Simple meal... with small pot and cute design...
I guess Malaysian should consider this as a potentially growing market...
And start doing something with it before the market was seized by foreign products...
Lolx...
See... There is always a reason why we don't support Malaysian made products... =P

I will definitely be missing everyone of you~

Going to move back to Rawang soon...
Reason? Graduating this semester...
And I am only allowed to stay till the end of June (latest)...
Suddenly I am sad...
I am sad to leave this place...

*My LV room*

Looking around my room...
Although sometimes I complained alotz...
About the expensive rental...
About the environmental unfriendly roommie who on the aircond 24/7...
About the Nigerians (housemates) who I have to share the washing machine with...
About those housemates who like to use Feleh and my stuffs without permission...
But I will surely miss this place...
The place where I have stayed for 3 years...


Looking around my uni...
Although sometimes I loathed the reports and assignments...
Complained the sucky and expensive foods in the cafeteria...
Too lazy to get my ass up to go to the lab...
Stab the back of the demonstrators (my first and second years)... XD
Over-dosing myself with caffeine to finish the 4% report...
Staying up all nights to read those boring journal articles...
Complain, complain and complain...
But in the end...
I will still miss Monash...
The place where I have stayed for 4 years...

*Most of the times I am just too sleepy in lab... =P*

Looking at all my friends...
Many of them have long graduated...
Many of them are still struggling with uni life...
Some I just get to know...
But now I am leaving already...
As what one of my friends have said: "This is life... People come and go..."
It is true... But it is a sad thing to admit...

And there is another thing that I will miss for sure...
The times that I spent in Leo Club of Monash...
Just received the last group meeting minutes...
Suddenly my eyes are filled... Blurred...
Leo is a major part of my uni life...
A turning point... It has changed me...
Especially the way of how I perceive things...

Well... Life moves on...
Although I have no idea of what is waiting for me in the future...
But I have no fear...
As this is part of life...
And at this moment... I am positive... =)

To all Monashians (including me =P),
Gambate in your studies...
Good luck in your exams... ^^