Showing posts with label Personal Health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Health. Show all posts

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Cancer~

Cancer is a terrible disease.

I've seen many people, either they are my friends' relatives, or some random patients I met in the hospital, cancer is indeed a very horrifying disease. It doesn't kill you immediately, but letting you dying in a slow process, which you know that there is practically no cure when you are detected at late stage.

Mom's medical report was out. Doctor said that she has a cyst at her right kidney, 55mm. Another cyst at her right ovary, 35mm. Left ovary was undetected (as in cannot detect the organ), which I don't understand why.

Doctor said for the time being the cysts are harmless. Round, well-defined and are relatively small size. But she needs to do check-up regularly to monitor her cysts. I am worried. Being in the oncology field for only a year but the knowledge regarding to this disease and the experiences I have with the cancer patients, I become more paranoid than ever.

Cancer cells are changing every minute, now they are benign but we don't know when they will cross the *barrier* and become cancerous. I told my mom to monitor her check-up closely, at least every 3 months she has to do her check-up, just to be safe.

As for me, I recently took pills that will fluctuate my hormone level like roller coaster. Already I feel the tenderness of my breast and the slight pinching pain of my left breast. I know taking the pills is unavoidable, but this is the last time, I don't wanna take it again. Bear in mind hormones play an important role in driving cancer.

If you said I am a super paranoid I will not deny. I am so scared of dying. Thats what my heart is telling me now.

Friday, April 30, 2010

I am not a clubber nor a drinker~

I used to enjoy clubbing quite a lot, with the alcohol, musics and the people around, you just can't stop your body from moving. It is a good way to temporarily forget about your problems, flirting around and enjoying the chill of having fun with random people. But that's once upon a time.

Too much of alcohol can kill. I started drinking quite a lot ever since I started working. The amount of input may be more than all the inputs I had over the years. I know I may be a paranoid, but my tummy don't feel well every time I started drinking, it aches a bit. Maybe I think too much, maybe it is a warning, to stop me from drinking too much before I become a habitual drinker.

Plus, in the club most of the people don't be their usual selves. In fact it is a good chance for clubbers to become someone else, someone that they yearning to be but may not have the chance due to social constraint. People started to get wild in the club, molestation, sexual harassment, harmless flirting, alcohol abuse and even drug abuse. In the end of the day, we may not know what we are doing.

Just find a day if you are in a club, try to be abit observant and look at the people around you. I don't know if this applies to everyone, but I feel abit disgusted. People become soulless, they become someone that you do not know. Some of them spent hundreds on beers and hard liquor, but in the end they vomitted out all the alcohol, drunk and wasted. Then whats the purpose?

Perhaps I have passed the age of clubbing. A few drinks once in a while still okay, but no longer a *kiap-kiap* kaki... XD

Monday, September 14, 2009

H1N1~

Today received a shocking news. My boss told us that our office clerk's son was transmitted with H1N1. From today onwards she will not be coming to work for one week, self-quarantine at home. Since company trip is on this Friday, so means she couldn't be able to make it for the trip already. Suddenly everyone is worried, because we are people who have direct contact with her.

So far I am feeling okay, just abit tired. Now just pray hard that nothing went wrong, everyone is healthy. Because I am going to Shanghai this coming Friday too, to meet up with my family there. They will be going one day earlier to my aunty's place in Shanghai. I hope the KK trip history is not going to repeat itself. This time the air ticket is much more expensive man. Oh God, please don't do that to me.

Anyways, the trip is still not the most important reason, although I will be very 心疼 if I couldn't make it, I am more concern about him. Either I cannot meet up with him this Thursday (to avoid the possibility of transmitting to him) or I risk him to get transmitted. Both are not something that I wish to happen. Well, nothing much I can do now, lets just pray hard that my body immune system is strong enough to fight against these stupid flu viruses. @@"

P/S: This is a realistic world, learning to control temper.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Because I am too lazy...~

I had a free eye check up the other day as my friend was working part time there. Well, they said my cornea epithelial cell count is at the low borderline for my age, which is something not good. The personnel asked if I am using contact lens, I said yea but months ago, I stopped using when I am just too lazy to wash my hand, take out the lens and rub with solution. Too lazy.

But why the cornea count thing is still so low? Well, also because I am too lazy. Although I didn't use contact lens for months but the damage might have been done over the time where I have been using contacts for years. I started wearing glasses during form 3, and contacts during year 1 or 2 perhaps. Kaka~ and what makes the matter worst is that I like to lie on the bed under my blanket and watch drama or read books. Sometimes when the drama gets too addictive like Gossip Girl I will forget the time and watch till morning. Under such condition, I wonder how my eyes can be of good health...

Plus, by having the life of a pig, I wonder how long it takes for me to really become a pig. Well, believe it or not, fats are accumulating around my waist and thigh and legs, claiming their authority on my body... It is just the matter of time before I am officially being categorized under the obese category. Lets see... @@

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Sick~

o oh~ I don't know what is happening...
My heart is throbbing for the whole day...
This looks like a hypertension to me...
Even before I took coffee of the day...

My brain become dysfunctional when my heart is working too hard...
Same goes to my body cells...
I feel weak... Very very weak...
And exhausted... As if I didn't sleep for days...
Plus... my left breast is aching...
When I feel it... I feel something hard... @@ (Symptom 1)
I mean comparatively hard... as compared to the right one...
@@ What the hell is this?
And it is painful... :S

Also, when I compare them physically with a mirror...
I saw the left one is darker...
Ops... symptom 2...
Shit lor... What the hell is this...
Sobs... I am only at my early 20s...
Don't tell me something that I don't want to know...
Sobs... But well... will get it checked after my papers...
I promised... sobs...

Plus... The weather today is damn sucky...
I think this contributed to my overall weakness...
Sick of this contaminated world...
Screw you!
If I am given a chance to reborn...
I will not want to... If the place is this earth again...
Sick! Sick! Sick! >.<

Friday, May 29, 2009

~Healthier Lifestyle?

After one whole semester of excuses...
A semester of slacking...
And seeing that my fats are accumulating...
Bouncing around when I am walking...
Colonizing my waist and thigh...
Probably in my blood too...
Eventually blocking my heart...
I think it is time to exercise already... =.=
Else... I can see my future as...

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But...
Looking at the weather right now...
I don't think I can get my mood on...
The haze and the choking smoke...
The risk outweighed the benefits...
Probably yea I can get to keep myself slightly more active...
But probably I will die of lung cancer...
WTF... =.=

And I think it is time to cut down on my food intake...
Especially junks!
Not going to buy cup noodles anymore!
They are just too tempting and *sedative* at night...
And lure me to make unforgivable mistakes...
I counted the plastic disposable forks...
(Becoz I don't quite like the idea of pouring hot water to plastic cups)...
And I already had 5 cup noodles in a month! (FYI for supper only!!!)...
And only 2 miserable yogurt as you can see from the picture... =.=
(Becoz I usually eat yogurt with fruits... )

WTH... =.=

No way! I am NOT going to buy cup noodles anymore...
And I have a few packets of snacks...
Double Decker classic cheese and Twisties tomato flavor...
Tell me if you want...
Coz I think sometimes some donation is good... ^^


Baaaa... After so much talking and guess what I am eating now...
Fried salmon from Sakae...
Erm... if you ask me why I am eating that at home...
I can only said daddy taught me from young not to waste food...
So I kinda *tapao* it yesterday from Sakae... =P

Everyone don't puke ya... ^^ Still very nice... ^^

Last but not least...
Wish the water supply will be back to normal soon...
As they promised at 7pm...
But you know la... Malaysia Boleh...
=.=

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

26.05.2009~

Today...
I over-slept...
I did not study much for my test... and...
I think I have screwed it...

Today...
I came to uni... and...
I saw a leng zai intern from A Cut Above smoking...
Feel so potong steam... =.=

Today...
I witnessed what encouragement can lead us to...
How a girl is brave enough to stand on the stage...
and get her hair shaved...
Girls... Yes...
They are girls...

"Shave me save me" ^^

Today...
I had some hot fried snacks...
Which I promised myself not to have it anymore...
Once again... I am lack of self-discipline...

Today...
I have said several F words to him...
I have decided to forget and forgo...
I have decided to stop devaluing myself...
I have decided to move on...
I have decided to live a happier life... and...
I have decided...

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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Braces~

Went for a monthly check up today...
After a brief examination...
Doctor was explaining to me that he wants me to be prepared...
That for the coming few months...
I will have a very ugly tooth arrangement...
I was like... W.H.Y????

Figure 1: Showing you the gap between teeth
(This is not mine... I feel too gross to show you all mine)... =P

He said I got a gap in between of my two teeth on the right... (Figure 1)
Where the center line was out...
That is why now he got a big plan in mind...
He wanna move my tooth one by one to the left...
To move the gap to the left...
Which eventually will be hidden in the internal part of my mouth... On the left side...
Which means... before that could actually happen...
Somehow someday you will see the gap in the middle...
Like those ah ma without a tooth... (Figure 2)
Oh my... Sobssss...
And I tell you what...
The effect was instantaneous...
I can see the gap moving to the left already...
That was extremely fast you know...
I just went to see the doctor today... >_<
Figure 2: Yea... It will be like Madonna... Kekeke...
But mine will be much bigger I think... Sobs... More like ah ma la... :S

Doctor knows I am eager to get rid of this whole braces treatment thingy...
That is why he *encourage* me by saying that this will be the last phase of my treatment...
Once the gap has disappeared to the left internal side of my mouth...
You are free to go...
You would not have to come and see my face every month already...
Although my expression is indifferent...
My heart was actually roaring...
All my cells were celebrating...
Though it is still abit too early...

Argh... another half a year...
Think should be quite fast la...
Kekekekeke... :P
Everyone please bear with me for another half a year... Lolx...

Sunday, May 3, 2009

~Menstrual Pain~

Argh... Menstruation is driving me nuts! The pain is getting worst! I cannot concentrate on anything! Was chatting with a friend online, and he said that the hot weather is driving him crazy, well... To girls like us, not only that the weather is crazy, but the menstrual pain can be much worst! Argh! @.@

I used to be quite tolerable with menstrual pain, as it does not affect me much, both physically and mentally. But nowadays, I think they have somehow found some ways to attack my pain sensory receptors, nowadays the pain is so just unbearable. >_<>
Look, I am stronger than you humans... Kekeke (smirk**)~

But come to look at their anatomy, well... very similar with ours, but of coz our reproductive system is much more developed. Lolx, thats y we suffer more!*Pure imagination* =P

Lolx... Ok then... Just gotto bear with the pain and start doing my report (again).. =.= Due date is tomorrow, but I wonder what time? 5.00pm? Then I can work till 4.45pm (as usual)... =P

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Biological Clock~

Went into complete chaos... Slept at 4am last night (last minute report), woke up at 7am, rushed to uni to print my wormie report and then rushed to lab for a three hour lecture. Well... Just tired and cannot concentrate at all. Half way through the class, I went to the washroom to get myself some fresh air. But it doesn't help much though, I still cannot focus when I came back to class. Dr. Gong's lecture is interesting as always, just that my cells are dying from sleep deprivation. >_>

Well, whose fault? Obviously the one who wrote this. >_> Earlier of the months I actually promised myself to sleep earlier, have a more healthier lifestyle. But it turned out to be still the same, I still slack alotz, I still play around alotz and all my reports are still last-minute works. It is like, they are imprinted within my genetic makeup, nothing I can do to change them. Argh! was chatting with Garry the other day, and he said there are many human *worms* also, like the bookworm and lazy worm... Lolx... Well, so now I have become one of those worms huh... Ewwww... Grosss!

A type of tapeworm... You will not want to know what they can do to us... =P

Why is it so hard to change this attitude? Why is it so hard to be more hardworking? Lolx... I don't want to die of liver failure later in my life... Lolx... and this actually leads to another consequence. I am now more depending on coffee.

The everyday-must-drink coffee...

I came about this particular 3 in 1 coffee brand (Super - Charcoal roasted Ipoh white coffee) about 2 years ago, when I started to get addicted to coffee. Wow, the taste is nice, creamy and the coffee taste is strong. What most important is that the effect is instantaneous! It is like I've taken some euphoric drugs and I get very *high* after drinking. Things that I thought impossible before that have now become *i-m-possible*... Lolx... Seriously... I wonder what they actually added inside the coffee... Or it is just to me? Maybe I should conduct a HPLC test to check out the ingredients. Who knows I am actually ingesting drugs (besides caffeine of coz) all these while? Lolx...

Urge... my eye lids gonna close... It is time to pay back my sleeping debt... zzzZzzz...