5 symptoms~

Five symptoms that a guy is leaving you

1. He replies your message late. Sometimes didn't pick up your call.

2. He always find excuses to avoid seeing you.

3. Even when he sees you, he is always busy with his own stuffs. Not paying attention to you.

4. He doesn't care much about your stuffs and life anymore. He talks more about other people.

5. He wants more personal space.

It is just ironic sometimes. When he loves you, he tells the world's sweetest story. How much he loves you, how much he is willing to sacrifice anything for you. But when love comes to an end, these are the things some guys are doing (I am not saying all).

I mean, no one can guarantee that every relationship works. In fact we wouldn't know until the very end of our life. But, if you know that this relationship is not going towards the direction that you want, then just be frank to your partner. Avoidance is always the worst thing to do.

P/S: I am just spamming my blog.

The growth hormone~

Today I went to the saloon to cut my hair. Felt so much better after the hair cut, as in my head is much lighter now, although the style is ugly.

This woman who cuts my hair has a small body frame with a short spiky hair with a flaring red dye. She looks young for a mid 40 lady, and trendy. But maybe her daughter has inherited her husband's genes or due to growing environment, her daughter is rather big size.

We chatted quite a bit when she was cutting my hair. I asked her some stupid questions on hair treatment and how to take care of our hair, which most of the times I don't register what she said. Just wanted to keep the conversation going. After awhile somehow we have diverted our conversation to growing hormone.

She said that people nowadays age faster, die faster. At the age of 30s to 40s, some of her customers have got cancer. She said look at her so small size, but her daughter is so big size. Indirectly saying that her daughter has been taking too much of meat. More precisely, meat injected with over-dose of growth hormone.

Somehow I look at myself. Hey I eat a lot of meat too, but my boobs still small, my body frame still small. Although no doubt the fats are accumulating at my thigh, but I don't think they are due to over dosed of growth hormone. Haha~

Well, what she said can be true thou.

The sense of danger~

The sense of danger.

Comparing a normal human with a hungry leopard, which one do you think is more dangerous? The first answer that comes to mind will be leopard, at least for most of the people. Ya it is true, the leopard is a hunter in nature. With its strength and sharp teeth, we will be no doubt torn into pieces if we happen to be its prey.

But I think human is much more dangerous. We claimed to be the smartest. Because we have a big brain, which claimed to be more developed and more complex. But sometimes I think it is safer to be with animals. At least their actions are predictable. Leopards are hungry, thats why they hunt. The cause and effect relation. But sometimes it does not apply to human.

But human is good at hiding their emotions. We can fake, manipulate, cheat and lie. We can produce an image that we want others to perceive us as. There is about 97% of our brain which is not developed. We do not know what is hiding inside that huge part of our brain that is waiting for a chance to manifest and control us.

Human is dangerous. Much more dangerous. Beware.

P/S: I should be a neuro-psychiatrist.

Bleak~

The only word to describe my mood and feeling now, is BLEAK.

It has nothing to do with any movie series or whatsoever entertainment-related stuffs, it is a word as stated by the dictionary. Sorry I think for the rest of the post, it may contain a little vulgarity because I am really not in the mood to make things right and proper.

Things have been bad ever since the second quarter of the year. In sales we have 3 quarters per year and second quarters started on May. Sales is down by few hundred thousands and company is having damn lot of politics and conflicts and conspiracies. I don't care who is gonna read this or in the end I am just talking to air, I just wanna let this all out once and for all.

Pressures are from all directions of my life. They are trying their level best to attack me from any possibility that they can ever find and penetrate. I know the market is bad, I know the team is down, I know every negative things that I need, or actually don't need to know. In fact I think I have known too much and I really don't blardy hell wanna know anymore.

What the heck! Then there is this over-doing and under-doing issues which I really don't know how to strike a balance. It is always easier said than done. Who doesn't know the ideal theory? I can give you one thousand and one theories. Whatever shyt theories you wanna know I can tell you, but when put into real life, how many can maintain ideal? You just tell me how many and try to convince me that I am wrong. What the heck!

Sometimes I am really angry with myself. I am such blind that I didn't see things around me. Talk like a nut, do things like a nut and think like a nut as well. In the end maybe I am just a nut who doesn't know what is the right thing to do. I know in the end of the day maybe I am the main source of all pressures, but I seriously don't know how to cut this blardy source out of my way. I am really becoming nuts!

Then there are bad news from the field, from the office and from almost every person that I came accross. When I look at them flushing into me like flash flood, at first I still tried to struggle and run for my life but in the end I just manage to stand still and let the wave flushes me off. I am getting numb, and don't know how to save myself from all these shyt.

Even some stupid indian fella wanna buli me with his dumbass Camry. And I only dared to shout and curse in the car but have no guts to throw stones to his car. At the peak of my madness I actually tore a piece of paper from my notebook and wrote: "Fcuk off! Such uncivilized human beings!". I wrote furiously but I have no guts to slid the note under his bloody windshield. Because I scared he may damage my car, or whatsoever possible damages. In the end of the day the note I flew it onto my dashboard. My colleague said:"Well, now you wrote a fcuk off note to yourself." In the end of the day, I am just a chicken perhaps.

Then there is this stupid flood in Singapore. A real flood that did not happen for more than 15 years. And just 2 weeks before I go for my Singapore vacation and this stupid flood is there to disturb my plan. Really somehow or rather things are just all going in a crooked way. Somehow they just wanna make my hard life to be harder, forcing me to stay in Ipoh long term I guess, in the Tanjung Rambutan hospital. What the fcuk! What the fcuk! What the fcuk!!!

I thought life is full of miracles and indeed I believe in the existence of miracle. But I don't know if miracle ever happens to me? I need a break. Gimme a BREAK!

Are we better off?

Recently I saw a video clip on Facebook which said that women are exposed to more than 500 types of chemicals in a day. From shampoo to facial wash to toner to body lotion and comestic products, every beauty product that we use today contains at least 10 types or more harmful chemicals.

Maybe this isn't new to most us as we are well aware of the role of *chemical* in our daily products. But as we are living in a society that is overwhelmed with chemicals, can we live without them? In fact we are consuming them everyday, even in the water that we drink.

When I was thinking about this, something pops into my mind. How about those women who lived in the ancient world? They did beautify their features as well but they did not heavily depending on chemicals. And yet from most historical records, they are described as beautiful and charming figures. Some of them even changed the destiny of a dinasty, if you know what I am saying.

So, are we better off with so many chemicals applied onto us?

P/S: Just some craps.

Change~

Change is the only constant in life.

I guess this is very right. Recently there are a few changing of staffs in my company. Some of them have been working for the company for a couple of years, and the sudden decision to leave really gave me a shock. Some have been promoted, which I think it is something happy, because he deserves.

Somehow or rather I think changes always happen around us. Perhaps, my heart is slowly changing too. Who knows?

是否失去了，才会珍惜？

人是不是都是这样的呢？

当失去了才会珍惜，
当太久不见时才会想起。。。

已经太久没听华语电台的我，今天突然心血来潮转去OneFM, 刚巧在播吴克群的《为你写诗》。听着听着，突然心里有种暖暖的感觉，好像重新找回失去已久的感动，还蛮不错的。

人往往都是这样的吧，
当我们重复地听着一首歌时，不会觉得它特别好听。
当我们重复地面对着同样的人与事时，只会把它们当成routine。
当我们拥有时，也不会特别珍惜。
当我们失去了，才来后悔可惜。

人类啊。。。何苦呢？

Dangerous Driver~

The other day I accidentally dropped my driving license into the slit at the inner side of my car dashboard. I didn't even realize that my license was missing until the next day when the security guard wanted to record my details before entering my office building. Well, I am the usual blur worm.

It then ended up where my dad had got to send the car to the service center and ask the technicians to break open my dashboard. Well, luckily it was inside, followed with an unexpected treasure, a long lost car park ticket from Subang Parade dated back in 2008. Muahaha~ *Sweat*

When I look back at my driving history ever since I got my driving license, I can only say that I am actually a reckless and dangerous driver. For the first major accident, I was knocked onto the divider, half falling asleep while driving on the expressway. Luckily God bless, I was fine but my car was badly ruined. Then there were times where I accidentally knocked onto other people's cars, most of the time I was at fault for not paying enough attention, or I was about to doze off while driving.

Also there are times where I like to use the emergency lane, especially during rainy days with terrible traffic jam. I am not a patient driver, whenever I have chance I will use it to cut short my time on the road. Ever since I started my first job, I have got 2 samans for illegal parking, scratched my car a number of times, knocked on the parking border and break my carplat, got a *warning* recently from some idiotic policemen for doing illegal stuffs in the car, and etc.

*Accidentally knocked onto the parking border and broke my car plat... Paiseh Daddy...*


*Some scratches here and there*


*MPSJ saman that I am not gonna pay anyway... =P*

P/S: They said women are bad drivers, I think it is perfectly right for me. =P

What a day~

Today I went to UITM to send a quotation to a doctor and to have some case discussion. Well, one thing "special" about UITM is that they have a very "unique" elevator system. Unlike the conventional ones, in UITM the numerator thingy is outside of the elevators, before you hop into the lift, you have to press the floor level, indicating where you want to go and the system will direct you to which lift to take.

*Don't know what this thing call, just call numerator thingy la... =P*

Well, it sounds cool but the system honestly, is very much worst than the conventional one. First it took ages for the numerator thingy to respond, sometimes they will show you a "XX" sign on the screen, indicating that the lift is not responding fast enough to you. Next, I don't know if the problem happens only in UITM or the entire elevator system is a problem by itself, they have separate lifts to go to different floors. For example, lift A is for floor 3 to floor 10. Lift B is for floor 11 to 20, etc.

* "XX"... Ops, I am slow... =P*

So happen today, poor Joeanne has to go to 19th floor to meet the doctor. Appointment was at 3.30pm and I was already late. Then the stupid lift was giving me damn loads of problem. First it took ages to respond. Well, I am a patient young lady, so I waited and waited. And when I walked out of 10th floor, I saw a big "ROSAK" sign on the outside of the lift which used to get to 11th floor onwards.

Pissed, tired and anxious. I decided to walk up the stairs. But since I am having a sedentary life for months, 9 floors of stairs almost took my breath away. I wore two layers of cloths to ensure that I don't look too thin, but now they were giving me problem as they insulated all the body heat inside. Finally, I managed to make it to 19th floor and what pissed me again was that, doctor was not in. Still panting, I called and she said she was stuck with some matters in UM, so unable to rush back. I was like... sigh... Sweat even more...

Then since today my last stop was at Shah Alam, I decided to use Guthrie highway to go home. First, I don't have to care about the toll, since the company is paying, second I can skip all the traffic jams in PJ and Subang areas. And seriously by using this highway, it only took around half an hour to reach Rawang. Wee~

*Erm, undulating road?*

Guthrie highway is relatively new, maybe because of the location problem, most of the time it is traffic free. Also, surrounding this highway is a long stretch of oil palm plantation, from far they look so calm and green. So nice. This remind me of my crazy time last time, where me and my friend used to hang around the highway at night, walking along the divider, shouting and boo-ing those cars passing by. I know it is idiotic... Blek...

*Guthrie Highway*

Last but not least. The good news of the day, today Roche called and asked me to go for the 2nd interview tomorrow, whereby I just went for the 1st interview yesterday! Woot! But then I couldn't make it tomorrow since I have a surgery appointment, so we make it on Monday next week. Well, hope everything goes well then.

P/S: Thank God for all the blessings, thank you my family and friends for all the support, and thanks dear for your love.

PutraJaya and Me~

A planned city located south of Kuala Lumpur, was built based on the theme of a garden city that is in harmony with its natural environment, yet it is modern, futuristic, unique and *supposingly* very Malaysian. It is the vision of Tun Dr Mahathir to make Putrajaya the new federal administrative centre of Malaysia, in order to ease the overcrowding and congestion in Kuala Lumpur (Wikipedia, 2009).

Critics said that the entire project was a massive waste of tax payers' money. The real cost of construction has never been officially released, but reliable sources estimated at least 20 billion ringgit has been dumped into this project (Wikipedia, 2009).

Regardless, Putrajaya is always romantically linked to me. Reasons? First, they have very pretty night scenes.

*Seri Saujana Bridge*

*Putrajaya lakeside*

*Some administrative building I think*

*John Doe*

Second, at night that place is very quiet, so you would have more private time with your dear, I guess. Also, there is a distance from KL to Putrajaya, so you can spend more time with your loved ones. Forth, as others said, we have to get back some interest from the government. LoLx...

*A quiet or dead city at night*

P/S: 车牌妹 is happy with 车牌仔... Ngek ngek...

Kinda True ^^~

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

(Source: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx)

Can't live without YOU~

*My second beloved*

People say...
Too much of coffee is not good for your health...

I say...
A cup of coffee a day...
Keep my sleepy bugs away...
Although they come back after a while... @@"

For now, coffee has become my second beloved, especially Old Town white coffee. Everyday before I go to work, I will get myself a cup of coffee, either I DIY (instant 3 in 1) or I will drop by Old Town to grab one before I go to office. Today while I was sipping my iced coffee, I stared at the water droplets adhering on the plastic cup, I heard my heart saying:"Really can't live without you..." Kekeke...

Not sure if it is really effective but it is more like a habit already, something that I must do almost everyday. But then I hope I can find an alternative la, because over-dosing myself with coffee is not something fun thou.

P/S: Someone said he will try to change my habit. Let see if he can do it. Ngek ngek. ^^

Oh, why he is not my boss? >.<

Today I went for my monthly orthodontic checkup after work, around 6pm. Initially planning to skip the appointment and tried making another one as I was too lazy to see doctor again. But then I remembered I just skipped one recently as it clashed with my weekend trip. So no choice, I went and guess what, I saw an interesting drama. ^^

It was 6pm++. The clinic was left with 2 patients including me. Nurses started to grumble. They wanted to go back early and no one wanted to work over time. There was this senior pretty nurse, she started to show her busuk face to the doctor, slamming the drawers and talked very loudly and rudely. From another room, she shouted to the doctor saying that she wanted to go home already. At that time doctor was attending me while she and some other nurses were attending the other patient.

Then doctor said please handle the patient for a while, he will be coming after he was done with me. The doctor said don't leave the patient unattended. The doctor was saying in a gentle way, almost pleading her to stay for another while. Then something interesting happened. The senior nurse marched over to our room and started crying. Below was the conversation as I recalled:

Nurse: This is your job, you have to do it! Not me!
Doctor: Yea I know, but please help me to attend the patient for a while.
Nurse: It is 6pm already! I want to go home!
Then she started crying.
Nurse: I am taking your salary but this is not the way of working!
Nurse: I don't want your OT money, I have enough to eat and spend.
Doctor: Okay okay, you don't cry in front of me. You go home first I will do the rest.
Nurse: If you continue like this I will quit this job!
Doctor: Okay okay you go home first.

I was like... Whoa! First the doctor was getting a bit emotional and I am worried that he might mess up with my teeth. Muahaha~ Second thing is, how can the nurse be so rude to the doctor? And how come the doctor is enduring her like a queen? I was thinking maybe they are relatives? or maybe because the doctor is depending on her. To train someone is not easy though. =P But still... It was abit over lor... How come my boss is not like him one? @@"

Oh btw, one good news of the day. If nothing goes wrong, I will be braces-free in 2 months time. Muahaha~ Yay! ^^

Animal Phobia~

Dog phobia.
Because they licked me when I was young.
Because they followed me from one street to another when I walked to tuition center last time.

Monkey phobia.
Because last time they snatched my drinks when I went to Batu Cave.
Because last time they rampas my orange and snared at me when I went to Selangor National Park (NS time).
Because recently they broke into my room and destroyed 2 pairs of my contact lens and ate my lip gloss.

Cockroach phobia. (insect or animal?)
Because when I was young I picked up one lipas with newspaper and had a good "close up" of their bodies. Damn geli.

Tikus phobia.
Because they are dirty.
Because I saw many dead and flattened tikus on the road.
Disgusting. @@"

And generally I am scared of all types of animals, including hamsters. =P

Guilty Pleasure~

Today Flyfm was having a discussion about guilty pleasure. What you know you shouldn't be doing but you enjoy doing it secretly. This topic was open for public discussion and many people called up to *confess* their guilty pleasures. It was indeed a fun topic for discussion. While listening to others, I thought of my guilty pleasures as well. Lolx.

Well, I don't think watching porns counts. Because it is not a secret anyways and I've stopped watching for quite some times as they bored me. Lolx. Then what is my latest guilty pleasure? I think it has to do with my *greediness* in some particular issues, which I don't think it is wise to disclose it here (don't wanna spoil my reputation, muahaha).

I enjoy the process even though I know I am playing fire. I know if I continue, it is just the matter of time before I fall into the many *traps* that I have set earlier. Eventually I may be the victim of my own greediness. But somehow I think my wild side is just too hard to be tamed. Somehow the wildness of me has surmounted my sense of rationality. I know I am bad, but just couldn't help it.

And the worst point is, I still don't seem to learn from my past experiences. I am repeating the mistake and I know I will regret later. It is like a drug addiction. I know it is bad but I just couldn't help myself.

So whats my guilty pleasure? I think some people may know and for those who don't know what I am talking about, just forget about this. No point killing your brain cells to think about stupid question like this. LOLx. =P

About Facebook~

A general observation.
I think it is pretty obvious that the highlights in Facebook differ accordingly to our age group.

At our early 20s,
The trend is rather active. You can see many of your friends playing stupid quizzes, addicted in some applications, shouting out and looking for food ingredients. Besides, many will shout and yell to complain about homeworks, assignments, tests and Monday. The latter applies especially to those who just started working, like me. =P

In terms of photos, it is not uncommon to see graduation/ convocation photos, trip photos, lover photos and outing-with-friends photos. All these are signs of youth. Active and energetic plus a little innocence, naive and wild sometimes.

At our late 20s,
The trend is getting slightly slower. Less quizzes, less active applications and less shouting outs. In terms of photos, maybe you will see a lot of wedding photos. Either you attend your friends' weddings, or it is your own wedding. Lolx. And now, you don't complain about assignments and reports, but maybe stabbing your boss for the infinite workload.

At our 30s,
The trend is even slower. Maybe you log in Facebook once a week, or twice a week, but not everyday or several times a day. Facebook to this group of people, is less significant as compared to those in early 20s or even late 20s perhaps. Now, people don't seem to upload pictures that often, even if they do, maybe you will see a lot of kids' pictures. *Happy family* Mother and child or father and child. Your good old friends might perhaps write something on your wall, something like:"Hey how are you nowadays? Busy changing diapers?" Lolx... Different stages of life.

At our 40s,
As I do not have any friend in my list who is 40 and above (besides my mom), it is relatively difficult to see the trend. But I think as we age, the significance of Facebook may be replaced by some other things, which have higher priority to us when we reach the age of 40s. Such as family, financial stability, health issues, career as well as children education. Somehow, you may even forget the password for Facebook. Lolx.

In marketing, this is called SEGMENTATION. People do different things at different ages. That is why we have plenty of products targeting different people of different age groups. Pretty interesting huh... ^^

Life is too much for my Bra~

Muahaha... Just a bit of joke for those who are sitting for exam right now... LoLx...

Counting down two days for my first and second papers... Gambateh!!!

~Students nowadays~

Well, I remember during my first and second years in uni, some of the lecturers are just too lazy to give us the lecture notes. Their excuses: First we can do readings by ourselves or DIY notes, second, which I think is more valid, they are just lazy, to even post up to the student drive. >.<

So what was our solution? If you join one of our classes, you will see majority of the students there busy copying, copying every slide and every single word from the slide, lolx... No one actually listens to the lecturer, everyone just copying feverishly. Lolx, well, I am one of them too. I think this is just the "kiasu" mentality of the students, whereby we worried that we might have left out some details, if we don't copy the whole thing. But when come to exam, how many of us actually read all the notes that we copied? Lolx... I didn't...

But then now, things changed. I am taking some third year units with my juniors now, as to complete my double degree course. As usual, lecturers are still as lazy as before, but students are now smarter. Lolx, instead of copying all the notes, students now use camera to snap the slides. You will see students listening to the lecturer, and once the lecturer change to the next slide, everyone will start snapping pictures. It is just like, a conference where you can see all the flash lights coming from all directions. Lolx... Well, this is kinda useful right? So I follow also...

Kakaka~ so students nowadays, we are more *in*... Notes are no longer in papers, power point or pdf format, now our notes are in jpeg format. =P