Humanity~

Many people said dog is human's best friend.

I don't know because I am not an animal lover nor did I have any pet before in my life. But recently a friend of mine is suffering greatly from her dog, which is dying of old age.

The dog was with her and her family for more than 16 years and now it is about time to go. I don't know what kind of emotion is that to lose a pet that we have kept company for so long, but I know she is very sad and cannot let go. I remember once when I called her for some business matter, she sounded weird and before I could finish talking she put down the call. I wondered for a while before I received her text and she apologized, because she wasn't in the right mood to talk. Her dog is very sick.

Seeing what she and her family have to go through really makes my mind thinks. Family bonding, love and passion. People feel sad for losing their pets, people feel said for losing their loved ones. All these emotions are evidence that we are still a "human" human.

We aren't completely blinded by money, power and greed yet, although our world is corrupted enough. We still have what makes us human, and that's humanity. I really hope that my friend will be able to go through this. All the best to her.

P/S: Be strong k babe. =)

Love is in the Air~

At every stage of my life,
There are something exciting waiting for me to explore.

At this stage of my life,
I feel the love is in the air. Many of my friends are getting married, many of them have met the special someone who they can see as a future husband/ wife. Some of them are preparing to be a mother, some of them just started to be a mother. I am happy, because I see the smiles on their faces.

All the best wishes to all of them.

朋友~

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

While I was on my way back today, I was listening to one of the old CDs that I got from my father. This is an old song, I believe many of us are quite familiar with. I sang along with the singer, and my mind was thinking of my partner.

Thinking of the changes that are coming so soon, my tears were dropping again. I will definitely miss her. The days where we hang around together, the hard days where we let our mind went crazy with figures and adrenaline. We were once comrade, but we will be friend for a very long time.

I will miss you. Wish you all the best.

Old Time Memories~

Yesterday I was telling my boyfriend about my close friends in highschool. There are four of us who always hanged around together. We knew each other for many many years and in class we used to sit in a clump of four. Two of us were librarians and another two were ordinary students. We went to the same tuition centers, we went to the same college and university. We were always the top four in class where a lot of our classmates during that time, thought we were inseparable, so did I.

But things change in time, including friendship. In Chinese we have this idiom called "天下没有不散之筵席", meaning that there is always an end for every gathering. In other words, regardless of how many years, separation among people is very common. Whether it is due to human activities, natural events (born, old, sick and die) or natural disasters.

So I think the same has applied to our friendship. I remember the last time the four of us gathered together was the time where we were anxiously waiting the sms from the government, whether we are selected for National Service or not. I remember some of our classmates were there as well, as if it was the last gathering before all of us parted into different routes in life.

Well, in the end of the long waiting, I would have to say that I was the only ''fortunate'' one that got selected for National Service. Others were "unfortunately" escaped. With that I have to fulfill my responsibility as a "rakyat" and went into camp for 3 months. The three of them then continued their journey by taking pre-university program together at the same college.

Sometimes when you have too much complains and grumbles in your heart, you tend to get explode very easily. This was what happened to the three of them during my 3 months service with the government. Things changed, from sweet to sour, from good to bad, from appreciation to blame. It is always like that, we tend to blame others when things don't do well, cause it is easier that way.

In the end of the day, our gang splitted into 2 and never talk to each other anymore. Some even delete the contacts from handphone and other social networks. Although it has been years now and I am still close with all of them, but the possibility of having the 4 of us to gather together is slim, maybe close to zero.

Sometimes I would spend sometimes alone, to think of what has happened to me over the past few years. What have I done and what have I not. It is a moment of reflection and to readjust my position in life, where do I wanna go, and whether I am working towards that direction. When I think about our long lost friendship, sometimes I can only sigh.

P/S: Happy Friendship to everyone.

Perhaps~

Blank...
Emotional...
Procrastinating...

Everyday we are constantly changing, changing with our living environment. During the process you may meet some true friends and loved ones, at the same time you may also lost some of those. Life is always as such, people come and go.

At every stage of our life we will meet different people and at the same time, some old ones may be left behind. At one moment you thought you have met a true friend or loved one, you thought this is going to last forever, the next moment you are losing him/ her already. Somehow it is a solid fact, but it is difficult to accept.

Sometimes I will still think back, those happy times we had together. Procrastinating. Flashback. But somehow I know you have done tolerating me, you have done seeing me acting in ways that you dislike or disagree with. So you go on with your own way, you shut the door that connects our hearts. Well, perhaps I started it first, perhaps you are really disappointed with me. Whatever.

Blank. Sigh. Blank.
Somehow I am still the girl living in my wonderland, no matter how much I tried to convince myself that I have walked out from the comfy zone. Perhaps I am not as strong. Perhaps...

Don't take me for granted~

I always remind myself not to take things for granted, because somehow, I have been through some hard times and I know sometimes, good things don't just pop up in front of us. It is always good to be thankful and to appreciate what we have in life.

But there are times when people tend to play a fool with you, try to take you for granted. Well, for being my *close friend* for so many years, I hope you know my line and don't go beyond. I hate people when they try to take me for granted. @@ Or... always accuse me for not putting in effort to maintain the friendship or whatsoever. Well, I respect your way of thinking and how you see things and I hope you too. It is just very frustrating when you point your finger on me and said that I have done nothing while you, sitting there and goyang kaki. Please, before you ever say something, please look at yourself and see what you have contributed. I have no idea what is in your mind and why you have this kind of thinking.

Also, as you said, for being your close friend, you don't mind to talk straight to me. Well, same here. For being my *close friend* I hope you know when I am serious and when I am kidding. There are some issues you know that I am taking them ultra seriously, so please don't ask me to do silly things regarding these serious issues, they are not *dramas* for you, or for you all to see. @@

Move On~

学会放下,才会幸福

My student life is gonna end soon...
Soon... I will enter another stage of life...
Meeting new people...
Hopefully meeting something different...
Something inspiring...

But still...
When I turn my head and look back...
I still see you there...
Waving to me...
You said this is life...
You said we have to move on...
And I told you I will move on...
I told you I know this is just life...
Nothing much we can do to change it...

But.. It is just not so easy as I think it is...
Perhaps... I am not as strong as I think I am...
Indeed... If you know me well...
I am just not strong...
I am fragile... weak... and vulnerable...

Somehow...
I will move on of course...
As you said, this is life...
But please give me some time...
I am not a superwoman after all...
Wish: All the best to you and to me...
Wish 2: A better life...