A Thousand Years~

Do you believe in music therapy?

Some music really makes our heart aches, makes our eyes tear, makes our body dances. Sometimes after a long working day, all I need is a nice song to cleanse my tired soul.

This is it! One of the best songs in 2011. A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.



P/S: The guy proposed to his girlfriend using memes reminded me of this song. =)

Dream~

When I was younger, I mean REALLY younger, I dreamed of becoming a tailor, with a small little shop, in the time of war.

I imagined myself being the diligent tailor, helping others to sew and make new clothing and at the same time earn a living. I imagined myself falling in love with a young soldier, who later died in the war.

I believe most of us young ladies, we do have that kind of dream before. The prince charming who come rescue us from our miserable live. Haha it has been so long since I dreamed.


P/S: "You raised me up". Suddenly the song was in my mind.
A nice song that I liked so much, but never really listen to it these days.

This series was one of my favorites when I was young, and that was when I dreamed. =)
Enjoy!

Surprise!

Change is the constant of life.
Uncertainty is the foundation.
Stability does not mean absolute,
It only means higher predictability.

Time to get rid of credit cards,
Apply a debit card instead.
Spend money that we have,
Not the future money.

Because future is unpredictable.
Because life is full of surprises,
And shock!

Deal with it.
Bear with it.

Eat, Pray, Love~

I still remember the science.

When we are cold, our hairs stand to trap air, because air is warmer than our body so they can protect us from getting hypothermic (too cold).

That's how our body responses when we are too cold. What about our heart? When our heart shivers, is there any ways to prevent it from getting too cold? I saw forest burning the other day while on the way back. Dark, thick smoke was gushing out, traveling very rapidly along with the wind. People didn't seem to bother. "Who cares what happen, I am busy enough dealing with my own life." Human nature.

I saw terrible accidents happened along the highway. Reminded me of the bus tragic a few weeks back. Looking at the injured victim lying on the road waiting for the ambulance, my heart shivers. I saw on Discovery channel about young kids under starvation. No clean water, no food and their retarded growth, my heart shivers.

I saw documentary about plane crash, about disappearing ships and human trafficking; I read about how people struggle to survive when they were diagnosed with cancer; I read through some magazines describing how a Iranian lady reconstructed her face due to injury from massive suicidal bombing, and the list goes on.

I live in a gigantic world. My life and encounters are merely a blink among trillions of human on this Earth. My heart shivers when I read about others. If there is a chance, I wanna be like Elizabeth Gilbert, travel around the world to find peace, to widen my vision, and to cleanse my soul.

*Worth reading*

Its HOLIDAY!

Finally, its HOLIDAY!

I know it is weird to say that now, since I am working already. But the feeling is just great! The anticipation for a long weekend after such a long long time. =D

Work has been more or less the same. But there are still a lot more to do, to learn and to improve. Besides, there are some abrupt changes in the company, which created a lot of speculations. To me I know there is nothing much that I can do, nothing much to worry about. If I am in the list, then fine. I will pack and go. After all I have tried my best.

But regardless, lets not talk about work anymore, as this post should be a happy one. Finally! There is a short holiday waiting for me! Holiday doesn't mean that I have to spend all my days in vacation. It can also mean that I just spend more time resting my brain and my body. Thinking of it alone makes me happy. Hehe~ It has been a long long time.

Nonetheless, wish all my Muslim friends a Happy Hari Raya and Aidilfitri, and all non-Muslim friends a Happy holiday! Lets ENJOY! =D

The Trust Issue~

Can guys can still be trusted?

While I was waiting for doctor just now, I grabbed a magazine on the rack and started flipping through. Saw a Q&A article in the relationship section and that really got me thinking again.

Skip the long winded story. The thing that I focus on is, there is this guy who told the other girl (A) that he misses her a lot and at the same time holding the hand of his girlfriend (B). A is doubtful of what he said. She reminded him of his girlfriend. He said this is just spices of life. We can once a while be a little naughty without telling our other half.

A hesitated. She wonders if this is the right thing to do. That is why she wrote to the magazine and asked for advice. Even though I am not an expert in love, but from the story I already know that the guy is merely a piece of shyt. Selfish. Irresponsible. And yet he claims that he loves B and at the same time misses A.

We always claimed to be the smartest animals on this planet. But at the same time we are the most down graded beings. We cheat. We lie. We hurt others to seek temporary happiness.

The lesson of the day:
Get away from irresponsible guys/ girls.

People come and go~

I remember having this kinda feeling some times back. Final semester was going to end and I was just about to get close with a bunch of friends. The friendship bond had just been made, and it was time to say goodbye again. The feeling is like two balls rolling at the different directions and finally there is a point where they cross the line and interact with each other. But the balls did not stop rolling. The interaction is just a transient process, the balls continue to roll towards different directions again.

Today I experienced this kinda feeling again. A colleague of mine has decided to resign and join another company. The first feeling I got after hearing the news was unbelievable. I thought she was joking. I really thought she was joking. However the news struck me as true, and she is really going to leave the company soon.

Of course I am happy for her as she found a job offering better stability and revenues. But the feeling of her leaving the company kinda sadden me. Seeing her in my eyes I recalled the time we spent together. Although we don't work together often but there are times where we shared our laughter, concern and many more.

People come and go. It is this time where I thought I started to get close with her, and she has decided to leave. Thinking about this made me emotional. Nobody will stay forever. This is just another fact of life.

Anyways, all the best for her. Hope she found what she wants. =)

Dreams~

Long long time ago,
When I was still a nerdy kiddo,
I dreamed of many things.

Sometimes they are so unrealistic, they make me laugh when I think back once a while. But I remember a friend of mine told me this before. We are who we are when we first born. Our characters, our desires, they are all at their purest stage.

But when we are getting older, things start to change with our growing environment. Dad said it is wrong if we don't study hard; Mom said it is bad if we don't get a good job, etc etc. Eventually we do things by taking into account of other factors, by considering others' expectations on how we are suppose to behave. Whether we are success or not is predefined by the society setting. Eventually we no longer dream anymore. How sad.

But I still dream occasionally. I think it is a temporary getaway and sometimes when I think of my dreams, they make me smile again. While I was on my way home from dinner just now, I dream of my future life. Do I need to work in the future? I hate being a employee but it is not easy to start my own business. The best way is that I have a husband who earns a decent salary, which is sufficient to survive and have extra for saving and investment. Then I do not have to work anymore, or I work leisurely. Keke~

I also dream of my future house. I am not a greedy person who likes big giant mansion. To me a compact and unique house will do. I just want a place where I can call home. Spacious, comfortable, peaceful, safe and sweet. Simple interior design, ergonomic furniture, airy with good ventilation, modern and clean.

I dream to have 2 kids in the future. One boy and one girl. The boy is a macho little boy, although younger than his sister, he tends to always be the one who leads and protects his sister if someone coming near her with any bad intention. He is young, energetic and smart. He is our family hero, but sometimes can be a little hyperactive.

I dream of my daughter. She is an obedient little girl but at the same time very independent. She loves cooking and cross stitch, things that he mother is not good at. She is very talented and love musics. In the future she want to be a musician and tour around the world to share good music with all the people that she comes across.

I love shopping actually. But in the future I hope I can offer a place where people can satisfy their shopping desire but at the same time don't have to burn a hole in their pocket. I wish to see their satisfying face after coming to my shop. I want to open a boutique in the future with a specific theme. Working attires for example? They are so expensive in the market and usually the designs are more or less the same. I want to open a boutique where my clothing are well designed, reasonable price and comfortable quality. I dream...

I dream of being a speaker occasionally as well, voluntary basis. There are many people out there who do not know about the importance of nutrition. Kids as young as 2-3 years old they may be so malnourished that they look like a old haggard man/ woman. Incidence as such is avoidable, if they know what is the right thing to eat. I wish I can give some speeches someday to the poor rural area people, in their dialect and really convey the message to their hearts. I wish all human beings will have a better quality of life...

It is so good to just dream sometimes. Although it may sound silly, but I feel good after dreaming. Will they come true one day? I wish... =)

Are we better off?

Recently I saw a video clip on Facebook which said that women are exposed to more than 500 types of chemicals in a day. From shampoo to facial wash to toner to body lotion and comestic products, every beauty product that we use today contains at least 10 types or more harmful chemicals.

Maybe this isn't new to most us as we are well aware of the role of *chemical* in our daily products. But as we are living in a society that is overwhelmed with chemicals, can we live without them? In fact we are consuming them everyday, even in the water that we drink.

When I was thinking about this, something pops into my mind. How about those women who lived in the ancient world? They did beautify their features as well but they did not heavily depending on chemicals. And yet from most historical records, they are described as beautiful and charming figures. Some of them even changed the destiny of a dinasty, if you know what I am saying.

So, are we better off with so many chemicals applied onto us?

P/S: Just some craps.

Joeanne Wong~

Below reflects how others are seeing me right now.

Joeanne Wong

1. Straightforward
2. Silent killer
3. Very helpful and a great team player
4. Helpful and can be very direct
5. Friendly and good to talk with
6. Great personality and helpful
7. Hardworking
8. Very helpful and easy to chat
9. Inquisitive and curious about life
10. Hardworking, passion in work and humble

How true is this? Can have a rating?

Pros and Cons~

As a sales person, every now and then I am dreaming for more new patients to use my drug so that I can hit my budget at the end of the day. I was actively talking about this topic over the dinner just now with my family.

My aunt was there too. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer (stage 3) few years back. Although she has completed recovered now and leads a normal life, I suppose the experience of going through chemo and all that depression still haunted her until today. She was telling me this: "If you want more sales means you want more people to kena cancer?" In business sense, she is not wrong. But in ethical sense, I feel very wrong. Sigh~ The pros and the cons.

Love fades with time?

Recently I know a friend who has married for 7 years. He is now 28 years old, and ya... He married when he was 21 years old. I don't know how he actually sees his marriage with his wife, but from our conversation I can wildly guess that he is still wild, still looking for fun, seeking something interesting outside of his wife and son, looking for more spices for his life.

When he was excitedly telling me his story, my eyes were looking into his, smiling and nodding. But my brain was thinking, analyzing this guy in front of me. There must be some reasons that caused him to make the decision to get into marriage at the age of 21, and I suppose there must be some LOVE elements in his decision. Nonetheless, when I looked at him now, I don't see any or at least I don't feel the LOVE anymore. So, is this what people said love fades with time?

When we were young we were told about the fairy tales, the Happily-Ever-After ending. But most of the time when we look at the reality, often times we only see the opposite. Husbands abuse their wives and kids, some even murder their family members; high divorce rate in most of the developed countries, not many people actually see the value of marriage anymore. If I like, I get married; and if I don't like, I can just divorce. Is this the world that I am living right now?

Maybe at the end of the day I still do not have the ability to change the world to the version that I prefer, but to the minimum I will do what I can to make a difference. Having him at my side is a God bless. Although I am not sure where is our destination at the end of the day, but at least during the process I have tried my best. =)

* Be positive*

简单的幸福~

有时简单就是幸福。

有位云吞面大叔正勤奋地准备面条，他的老婆在旁帮忙打包。他们身边有个可爱的小女孩在静静地做功课，不时吵着爸爸妈妈要他们来看看她的功课。只见大叔边准备面条边对着小女孩说：“等下爸爸来看啊。。。”

云吞面大叔一家人可能不是很有钱，但是他们却很快乐。

幸福有时可以很简单，只要有心即可。

P/S: 以上情节是我昨天打包云吞面时所看到的。

A story to tell~

*I used to think that I will not be able to live without him, but now I realize that I am doing better without him. This is life perhaps, and I thank him for coming into my life, once.*

A phrase that I saw while hopping some random blogs just now. From the sentence itself it is quite obvious that the lady who wrote the post had been through some really hard times before she became who she is today. And yet she thanked the guy for coming into her life, as without him, she wouldn't be who she is today.

Quite a meaningful one. The reality of life is that most of the people we meet today, they come and they go. Some may stay longer, some may just pass by, some may create a great impact, some may leave a deep scar, some we may still sigh when we think back, and the list goes on.

Regardless of who, and their roles in our life, they are the people who mold us today, either the bad or the good way. For me, I thank everyone who came into my life once, and thank those who are still lingering around me, and thank those who have changed me over the period of time. Well, it is just life after all.

P/S:

如果当时的我坚持不让你离去,
今天的我们又能否改变命运？
如果一切已是命中注定，
那过分坚持只能活在过去。

谢谢你让我感受爱情，
谢谢你曾经光顾我的生命，
如果时间能回到过去，
走回同样的路我还是愿意。

虽然感情已成回忆，
但看见你开心我还是替你高兴，
对你，有一份真挚的友谊，
愿快乐常伴你。

Marriage~

*Marriage*

One of my besties is getting married next year. Perhaps she will be the first one who gets married among all my close friends. Really, I am happy for her as well as her beloved one. Because I think, it is not easy to find the right one, and at the right timing. Congratz! ^^

When I had a conversation with my parents and my grandma a few days ago, I kinda grab some ideas of how they perceive marriage, or even a serious relationship. Perhaps they have gone through the process themselves, so they are speaking of self-experiences.

They said that marriage is unfortunately not the matter of two persons. In other words, a successful marriage is not merely based on love. Living in a materialistic world, it is sad to say that we need money to get married. At least enough money to start a family and to support monthly expenses and other expenses. Also we have to think a few years ahead, when we welcome new members to the family. That will unavoidably increase monthly expenses. How about the change of the macro-environment? When your salary is fixed at a point while inflation is getting worst? I cannot deny that what they said is true. In fact they kinda scare me into getting married. Perhaps after all I am not ready for marriage yet.

Nonetheless, I still see marriage as a blessing, because this shows that we are lucky enough to meet the one in life. Someone who makes our lives complete. I am still positive thou,

*Marriage brings two souls together, two hearts to beat as one.*

p/s: Appreciate your loved ones. =)

是否失去了，才会珍惜？

人是不是都是这样的呢？

当失去了才会珍惜，
当太久不见时才会想起。。。

已经太久没听华语电台的我，今天突然心血来潮转去OneFM, 刚巧在播吴克群的《为你写诗》。听着听着，突然心里有种暖暖的感觉，好像重新找回失去已久的感动，还蛮不错的。

人往往都是这样的吧，
当我们重复地听着一首歌时，不会觉得它特别好听。
当我们重复地面对着同样的人与事时，只会把它们当成routine。
当我们拥有时，也不会特别珍惜。
当我们失去了，才来后悔可惜。

人类啊。。。何苦呢？

Air Asia~

I do not travel often, and if I do, I do not usually travel with Air Asia. If I am not mistaken, this was the 2nd time I travel with Air Asia. The first experience was abit disastrous. I remembered going to Guang Zhou with my family about 2 years back, flying with Air Asia. Perhaps the weather was too terrible that day, or perhaps the pilot was half asleep, the plane was shaking very terribly.

We passengers, especially me was in panic, didn't know what happened and didn't know if I am gonna end my life in the plane. Then during landing, I remember having a very bad headache, mostly due to the imbalance pressure inside and outside of the plane. At the time I was only hoping to get down from the plane as soon as possible before I started puking all around.

That was my first experience with Air Asia and that gave me an impression that "cheap things are not good things". If you translate the phrase into Cantonese, it means "平也无好也", LoLx.

This time to Sandakan was my second time with Air Asia. The feeling was surprisingly very different from my first time. LCCT has expanded quite a bit since the last time I visited. Now they have Old Town and Starbucks. I remember few years back they only have McD for people to hang around.

On top of that, perhaps I am too tired, I didn't realize anything abnormal. Once I hopped into the plane, I fell asleep almost immediately. Didn't know who was sitting next to me, didn't know when they started asking for food services, didn't know when they started the duty free thing. A pig, ya I know.

Nonetheless, after about 2 hours of sleep, I was awaken by the young man sitting next to me. He was talking to himself, playing with a stack of cards. Apparently he is a magician, trying to make full use of his time to practice his skill. Interested, we started talking and he started showing me some *magics*, which I think is unbelievable. It is kinda fun thou, not that we can bump into a magician all the time. =P

After some free entertainment, it is time for landing already. He left his card to me and said I can call him anytime I want, if I need his service. LoLx. Quite a fun guy.

So here I am, Sandakan, the gateway for eco-tourism in Sabah.

Joeanne's Theory of Sales~

*Figure 1: Joeanne's theory of sales*

A product specialist, as it name suggests, is a person who specializes in his/ her product that he/ she is selling. Every single bit of information from A to Z, from 1-100 must be in our fingertips. Nonetheless, being a product specialist is not merely to know your product well. There are many key players that determine if you are a good sales person or not. As everybody can sell, but not everyone can sell well.

Lets have a look at Figure 1. Say like you are very hardworking. You studied your product in detail until you can memorize everything inside out. But if you have nothing else besides your product knowledge, you are not going anywhere in sales. Because, when you go to the field, your client is not very much interested to know how your product is being manufactured and how they work and their quality, etc. They are more interested in knowing HOW your product can bring benefits to them.

This leads to the second factor in sales. You must know your customer well. First time visit to a client is usually to introduce yourself and also a chance for you to screen his/ her potential in buying your product. Once they are determined as the potential group, then consistent visit is a must, as this is the only way your client will remember you more easily. Then while visiting , try some rapport building, try chit-chat with the significant players, they can be anyone else working around your potential clients, either indirectly or directly. This is the way where you can start gather information, know and understand their needs and problems. Eventually, use different approaches as in HOW you can use your product to specifically address to your client's needs. Because in sales, clients do not buy product, they only buy solution that a product can offers to solve their problem.

For example, say like you buy a notebook today. What is the reason of your purchase? You don't buy the notebook actually, you buy the solution that the notebook offers. They can be functional (for you to write something) or they can be esthetic (a gift to someone else) and etc. So, bu understanding your potential clients' problems, you would be able to approach them better and in fact, they are more willing to spend time to listen to you.

On top of all these, we must have sufficient level of soft skill and general knowledge. This is important especially if you do not know your clients well. General knowledge can be politics, economics, whatsoever that you can read from newspaper and magazine, because they are essential tools for ice breaking between you and your clients.

Always remember that being a sales person, you don't sell your product all the times. In fact, before you can sell, we must get to know our clients first, then use different approaches to win over their hearts.

As illustrated in Figure 1, in the pool of sales person, a lot of them master only one or two factors of selling. The white fragment represents those that stand out of the crowd, as they are people who master all skills in effective selling.

P/S: THE ABOVE IS JUST MY STUPID THEORY AND I JUST KNOW HOW TO SAY ONLY... BAH!!! @@"

Dangerous Driver~

The other day I accidentally dropped my driving license into the slit at the inner side of my car dashboard. I didn't even realize that my license was missing until the next day when the security guard wanted to record my details before entering my office building. Well, I am the usual blur worm.

It then ended up where my dad had got to send the car to the service center and ask the technicians to break open my dashboard. Well, luckily it was inside, followed with an unexpected treasure, a long lost car park ticket from Subang Parade dated back in 2008. Muahaha~ *Sweat*

When I look back at my driving history ever since I got my driving license, I can only say that I am actually a reckless and dangerous driver. For the first major accident, I was knocked onto the divider, half falling asleep while driving on the expressway. Luckily God bless, I was fine but my car was badly ruined. Then there were times where I accidentally knocked onto other people's cars, most of the time I was at fault for not paying enough attention, or I was about to doze off while driving.

Also there are times where I like to use the emergency lane, especially during rainy days with terrible traffic jam. I am not a patient driver, whenever I have chance I will use it to cut short my time on the road. Ever since I started my first job, I have got 2 samans for illegal parking, scratched my car a number of times, knocked on the parking border and break my carplat, got a *warning* recently from some idiotic policemen for doing illegal stuffs in the car, and etc.

*Accidentally knocked onto the parking border and broke my car plat... Paiseh Daddy...*


*Some scratches here and there*


*MPSJ saman that I am not gonna pay anyway... =P*

P/S: They said women are bad drivers, I think it is perfectly right for me. =P

Blessed~

*Blessed*

Yesterday my friend was sobbing over the phone, saying that she is very stressed with her work. Being a graduate from accountancy, she is now working for a medium auditing firm. From day to night, from Monday to Sunday, her life is filled with work and no personal life. No matter how strong and how determined, eventually she falls and breakdown.

I got another friend who is job hunting for quite some times. He is experienced and capable, but seems like luck is not on his side these days, he is still in the process of looking for a job.

Somehow I think I am the fortunate one. I got my first job rather quickly after my final paper, not through conventional ways but a gum disease gel. Although I kept complaining but everyone in the company was treating me quite well actually. I was confirmed during the second month and by right I should hand in my resignation letter one month in advance. But I didn't do so. My lady boss was very kind indeed. She told me that she would count me as unconfirmed, so I wouldn't have to pay for the penalty and still get the basic salary. So kind of her. Thanks Penny.

Apart from this, while I was regretting of being too hasty to quit the job, I finally got a confirmation call from Roche. After several rounds of interview and product presentation, I was accepted! Something I think it is just based on pure luck, as I don't think I did too well.

For all these, I can only say thank you.
Thank God, my parents, my friends and you my dear.
For the future, I will try my best and I will live my life with gratitude.
With love.

P/S: I saw a quote at my orthodontist's clinic, something I think it is worth sharing.

*Think Positive*
Say to yourself every morning,
Today is going to be a great day!
I can handle more than I think I can,
By worrying about them,
Things will not get better anyway,
I am satisfied,
As long as I've tried my best.